Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

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   I'm here no matter what. I have never left and I'm not going to. Life has 4 letters and so does your name which by the mind of me means you are life to me. Jeff Page I love you it may be harder for me now to not worry and feel scared because of everything but that's cause you mean everything to me.

   What am I to you? I don't want to be the back up plan, I want to be the girl you love more then anything. I want to be the girl you still see yourself with in the next few years. The one who makes you happy and you don't have to hide yourself from me. I want to be yours, all of yours not just the second girl, the one who's not the one you love.

   What am I? Am I anyone to you? Am I the girl you love, not the backup plan, but the girl who finally takes first place in someone's life?

   I'm so scared now, that if I'm not talking to you I feel like you'll hurt yourself or that you'll silently leave me, because I'm not worth anything, I never have been.

  Through thick and thin I'll always be here loving you. I can promise you that. No matter what happens and how bad things get.

   I want to be someone to you, someone important. The one you love. Your all I want, I want to have a life with you, I want to be in a long committed relationship with you where were both happy and love each other.

   Will you be mine? Will you stay? Do you want the same thing or do you want something else because I'm ready to have something with you.