I want to stop feeling like I'm dead. I want to feel loved and as though I'm everything to someone. I want a guy to say he loves me and mean it and I want him to stay but I also want my heart to know its not true. To know its a lie coming from that beautiful persons mouth.
I want to live as though I'm not broken, as though I've never known true love from a guy. As though I know how to play his game and can win. As though I won't regret kissing his lips because I'm thinking of someone else. I want to forget the happiest days of my life coming to an end.
I want my heart to know its all a lie when he says its forever, that I'm his and only his, and when he says he'll love me forever. But I also want to know that he does love me, that at that moment he intended on stay forever mine, I'm so stuck between.
If I'm honest with myself I want it to be my light. I want him to be the guy because at least then I know I'll never win but I know the game and my heart knows already what's real, fake, and intended because I've already made it at least that far into our forever unfinished game.
I want a lot, but I know I'm not worth that all. If I am say something, make me feel please but only if its true.
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Surviving | In The Life Of An Author
CasualeJust my corner of the world were I can talk about life. Don't hate just appreciate that I can tell the world how I feel. - Started - February 25th, 2018 - Ended - August 8th, 2018
