Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

With Held | Thoughts

   Just kill me already. I won't be able to handle him leaving me. And I'd rather die then see that happen.

   I know I lied to you about that one thing but that is the only thing I've ever lied to you about, and I'm sorry I didn't want to worry you because I did something stupid.

   There is only one other thing I've kept from you and its not something I've lied about but something I've kept to myself. I'll tell you what it is if you would just answer me.

   Its just killing me okay but if I lose you because I didn't tell you then I want someone to hit me with a truck. Because I've been trying to deal with it on my own but I'll tell you, I know I should have told you from the beginning but I wanted to handle it on my own. But now its killing me.

   If you leave then someone shoot me. Take my life and make room for someone important. Because if I lose you to this then there's no point in living.