Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

Never Have | Hurt Thoughts

   I've never left even now. Yet I'm the one who still gets hurt because I'm in love with him, someone who will never fucking understand what he means to me or fully love me. Yet I stay.

   He left for her once. Then comes back and soon after says he loves her when he's with me. Yet even after that all the fucking pain I'm still here.

   I guess he really is everything. I guess if it doesn't turn out well I'll just be so broken in the end, I wont be able to feel a thing which would be good for me.

   I'm staying because I love you, don't use me. Because even though I'll continue staying, you don't understand what this feels like.

   Please don't hurt me anymore even though I'm staying that doesn't mean I can take the pain. This is going to be hard for me and you need to know that, you can't expect me to just be okay right off the bat, you hurt me really back but I love you ands why I'm stil here but also because I hope to much for us.

   I'm finally going to make that promise I talked about before. Your going to have to forgive me for it though.