Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

Cruel World | Thoughts

   I'll continue acting but don't think it isn't hard for me to smile and say I'll be fine. The word I'll means some day or sooner or later in that sentance.

   Now tell me I'm fine, that it doesn't matter and watch me say I'll be fine. Now do you believe me or do I have to explain that the I'll in that sentence means in a long time.

   With every word will they fall blind, or with every word do they just not care? Or maybe I'm actually a good actor, who knows.

   Cruel ass world haven't you done enough? I'm better off taking my life, maybe then everyone else's will straighten out.

   But the jokes on me, I want to live. I want to see how things turn out, I deserve to see what my life can turn into.

   I want to be able to say I beat life. That I won in the end no matter what pain in caused me.