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Day 1 | Thoughts

Day 1
Friday, May 25th 2018

   Today's the first day of summer break and to be honest I'm stuck in between loving and hating it. Yesterday I was just a crying mess after I came home, I waited until I was alone and I was just balling my eyes out because I'm going to miss him and I love him with all of my being.

   I'm going to miss everything that had to do with him. Yesterday I just kept looking at his face and he would say what, I was staring at him because I wanted to have every detail in printed in my mind so that no matter what I would remember everything. I know I wouldn't have forgotten but I wanted to make sure.

   I'm scared the distance will affect us but I'm more scared of just not being able to be by his side and smile and laugh with him. I can't wait for these two months to end already because I miss him already and I have a feeling its going to be just like spring break were I did some really stupid things.

    I know that I'm going to cry a lot over these two months, and I know I'm going to feel like everything is going to fall apart but that's just because I love him that much better, to the point I'm probably going to think I'm dead inside. I'm going to miss everything.