Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

Will I Ever? | Poem

Will I ever get you back?
Because I love you
And I'd do anything for you
This pain is killing
And I won't walk away,
I'll never leave
But its killing me.

So far everyday
I think about
All our happy memories
And then I start crying
Because I've screwed up again
You've walk away
And its my fault
And I'm not sure
If I'm getting you back this time.

What if you don't come back?
All I want to be is yours,
Saying were just friends hurts so much
Because what if that's what I stay,
Just a friend.

I want to make you happy,
And be yours
But I just screw it up
And you leave
I love you so much yet
I continue to screw up.

I smile like everything's okay
But its not,
I'm not,
I'm doing stupid shit so
I'm not hurting
And in the hopes I'll forget everything
Because 14
And I've found my life,
The guy I love more then anything else
And he's not mine.

This is for him if he reads this,
I'm not going to say what it says
But its for you.

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You may not know
What it says but I wish and do,
That will only make sense
If you know what it says.