Surviving | In The Life Of An Author

Willing | Thoughts

   You said that you see yourself with me in a few years still being happy. Well I'm willing to go through anything for us, I'd even take it on by myself so you wouldn't have to deal with shit and you could be happy just so we could make it to those few years being happy.

   I've never been so happy and willing to do anything for anyone until you. You make me so happy, happier then I've ever been in my whole life. You make me feel loved and safe being with you like I'm in a dream but this isn't a dream. I've never longed to have something so much in my life and what I long for while being with you is that this goes on for years and that we're still happy and love each other.

   I'd give up my life for you. I'd trade it so you could always be happy. I'd take all your pain and troubles if I could because I'd literally do anything for you.

   Ever since I've met you I've always liked you. I can remember everything that I've gone through for you and all the feelings and memories I've had with you, even with everything that's happened I'd still never change my mind about staying and waiting, I'd never.

   Maybe I'm crazy and am just seeing what I want to see but everytime I looked at you, even when you were having a bad day if I looked you in the eye and smiled at you it was like you were at peace. It could have been just how I see things, maybe I just crazy or maybe you actually were, but no matter what I've always tried to fix and help you even in the simplest ways.

   If you knew even half of the shit I went through for you secretly then you'd probably be even more surprised that I've stayed. Why are you so surprised that I've stayed?

   You may not always be able to keep someone in your life but from where I stand it looks like you've always had at least someone maybe I'm wrong and if I am then maybe you'll understand why I've stayed easier because you are the second person in my entire life who cares, loves me, who is still actually there for me. I'd say you've been lucky to have those people but then again your not because they left.

  Either way though and you've probably heard this a million times from so many other people but this time no matter what, if you believe me or not I am staying because I will go through anything and everything for you.