The Aftermath

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May 1996:
Justine

'FUCK YOU THEN....FUCKING OUT OF CONTROL BITCH' He shouted pounding the door with his fist not thinking of the choice of wording

I can't believe he said that.....I can't believe he said.....

He there writing songs....keep ya head up.....talking bout he don't disrespect women and chattin' bout he love women with the passion....but he fails to do that.

I had the pills that were in my hand. I didn't know what kind they were but I'm just really feed up of life. Like my mind keeps telling me get back with him, but my heart tells me the opposite.

I opened the tin and shook a hand full out on my hand. My hands were becoming sweaty and they were shaking as well. While they were doing that, I brought my hand closer to me put was slowly blinded by the tears building up in my dry eyes. I opened my my mouth slightly but instantly chuck them to the other side when I heard a banging noise coming from the other room.

Damn!

I was too unstable to get up to see what was going on and I knew it would be Pac doing all that crazy shit.

I let my hands be free when I laid my arms effortlessly on each side as I swung my head back onto the cold wall. I was breathing heavily and tears started flowing down my eyes, all gushing at once.

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I must've cried myself to sleep because I woke up and I was still in the awful state I was last night. I see the same pills still scattered on the floor and I see the sunshine blinding me through the blinds from the window.

I got up carefully and opened the door slightly to see if it was safe to come out....exactly....safe?.....am I growing afraid of Tupac too?

I slowly came out, walking quietly so I didn't wake Pac up with my footsteps. I walked pass each room, only to see shattered glass, clothes on the floor and many other shit that wasn't supposed to be where they are now.

My eyes widened not only because I stepped on a little piece of glass, but because Pac was nowhere to be found.

Really that nigga was went because of an argument?.....

I just shrugged it off and just looked at the room as I knew I was going to have to clean this shit up. I also have to make it quick as well because I got to attend Faith's baby shower and damn I need to get the right cake as she wants to revel the sex of the baby as well.

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Damn took my like forever to clean this place up. I thought I wouldn't have finished it due to the amount of glass that I had to pick up just to avoid splinters.

I came out of the car as I finished parking it so I could get the cake out. I drove carefully this time because I didn't want to rock up with a beautifully designed cake for it to become horrible just because of my careless driving.

I held the cake carefully in both of my hands as I knocked onto the door. The music was really loud as I heard one of Biggie's songs play on loud speaker. My head was bobbing to the beat as I didn't even realise Biggie himself standing in front me.