The Aftermath

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August 1996:
Tupac

'For Fuck Sake!'

I stormed into the empty house as I soon began to fill it with loudness from my anger. I slammed the door so hard that I thought I was broke it. I punched the wall so hard that I made a dent in it. I then winced in pain as my hand suffered from the aftermath of punching the wall.

I kind of felt better but not good enough. I went into the kitchen and rolled myself a really big fat blunt and a grabbed a bottle of gin from the shelf. I sat myself outside of my of the garden and rested there for a little bit.

As I took simple drags from the blunt, I began to become calmer but couldn't believe that I just lost my bestfriend over some stupid shit that could've been avoided if I just said the right words.

'Well just ignore shit.....if you stop paying any mind to her, she'll eventually stop' - really, what was my ass thinking? I damn well know Justine is stubborn as fuck and if someone is talking shit right to her face, she ain't gonna be the type of person for people to trod on her like that.

It's only been an hour since she's been gone and that's way too damn long for me. Hell Jodeci got me on this feenin shit right now. I was thinking today would be the right time to catch up today with her but I chose to ask her the wrong damn time.

I turned my head to the side when I saw my phone ringing. I hesitated to pick it up but you never know, it could be really important.

'Hello' I spoke into the phone softly

'Hey Ba-' Kidada said as I as I cut her off

I really wasn't in the mood to talk to her. After Justine lashing out at me, it made me fucking realise the people I was pushing away and the bad influence I'm getting from this whole beefing shit and this gang shit. I'm not even in a gang but damn my ass getting targeted to many times making me feel like I'm actually in one.

I don't really feel like being with Suge now. Like I like Death Row and shit but I wanna start my own record label, start producing shit and becoming more successful than all these record labels.

I can call it Makaveli Records.....I can team up with the outlawz and have Asu, Big Skye, Ghetto stars, Nice and smooth. Wow, I can't believe that bomb idea just came out of my head like that.....damn I've got everything planned out but will I even be around to do that shit. I shouldn't be thinking about Death right now but it's always ok my mind now and then and it doesn't scare which is weird. I feel like the atmosphere I'm in at the moment has kind of prepared me for it.

So I gotta do a lot to still be remembered if I go of early. Don't want my music to go down to the grave with me.

August 1996:
Justine

'I don't wanna hang with Death Row' I said on the phone to Mary

'Girl tell me....what happened?' Mary asked

'Man too many snakes in that motherfucking studio' I took drags from my blunt 'damn I need to stay outside the studio so none of them snake on my ass' I laughed a bit

'It that bad?....' she stated the obvious

'Sadly like it's not everyday killing nigga season. Suge be getting niggas to jump on other niggas just because they don't do things that he don't like....I mean grow the fuck up and deal with other people's decisions.....he ain't Jesus so does every kiss up in there gotta bow down to him?.....damn he need niggas beating them up because one step he make, he gonna suffer from a heart attack....instead of killing niggas, go to the gym!' I expressed

'Jesus.....girl you crack me up' Mary laughed

'It's damn true man.....I don't know how he getting bitches with that amount of flesh on him.....he like three people in one' I cussed Suge out more

'Nah girl knowing the violent nigga he is, He probably blackmailing the bitches' Mary laughed on 'he can't get girls the way Tupac, Snoop or all the rest of those men in Death Row.....talking bout Pac, I saw him with this girl at a club and it wasn't Kidada'

'They broke up?!' I said shocked

'That nigga cheating on her!' Mary expressed

'Good - she deserve, that's what her ass gets for disrespecting me'

I ain't on good terms with Tupac but if he betraying Kidada, I couldn't give two fucks, that's just how karma works, isn't it?

'Damn! I thought you would be like No he shouldn't cheat on her' Mary mocked me

'Nah Mary, that bitch ain't give me respect, let that shit happen to her' I stated

'Hmm....okay'

'Don't say shit Mary'

'Girl I ain't saying shit, you think I'm a snake?'

My head turned sharply as I heard the door shut. I didn't see anyone walk through the door so that felt really weird.

'Yo!....you there?' Mary shouted from the phone as it frightened me

'Yeah....yeah I'm there, Imma call you back though, I gotta sort some shit out' I told

'Alright cool then, call me when you're done'

'For sure' I reassured her

I don't know why I'm getting shooked, like someone just shut the door and it just seemed to be a coincidence that happened the same time I was on the phone. Like jeez, no one spying on me....calm the fuck down!