The Aftermath

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August 1996:
Justine

Finally out of this shithole!

As you are probably wondering, I'm going to be in a wheelchair for sometime.....mostly like a month because my leg is unstable and my arm is too, but my arm will heal quicker than my leg as it only suffered from minor injuries.

'We gonna need you to sign some release forms' the doctor told my mum

After my mum sighed them and carried me to the car park, I got a little bit confused as to why no one was here apart from her.

'Mum, where the others at?' I asked curiously

'The others, I dunno.....they might be busy or something' my mum replied but I wasn't convinced

Something smelt fishy - and it ain't me so don't even think about it.......as I was saying, something was up and I could tell because my mum was blunt about her answer.

.........

'SUPRISE!' Everyone shouted as the door opened

I saw a big banger hanging from where the stairs were saying WELCOME BACK JUSTINE.

I don't know if it's just me but damn my house looks a little bit bigger as it was before......maybe because I haven't been here for sometime that's why.

I analysed the room then my friends and family who were here.

Damn how they get most of my family here, most of them up in New York so that must've been hell, especially with black folks......

'Oh baby, it's so glad to see you here' My Gran hugged me tight forgetting that I was still in pain

'Ma......you gon' break your grand baby even more' my mum singled for my gran to stop hugging me

'I can't help it, I thought I was going to lose her, I cried my eyes out when I heard' she responded

'Grandma I'm okay now' I cheered her

'Justine, you need help with that?' My mum asked

'Ma Imma be fine, I can do this wheelie thing myself' I told her as I rolled of

I went over to Mary, Jennifer and Faith and damn I was shocked about what they had to say about a little certain somebody.......

'Girl thank god you are safe and sound because I tell you that boy keep crying over you, panicking, couldn't eat or sleep.....' Mary trailed of making me laugh a bit

'You talking bout DeVante?' I assumed but they all gave me a dumb look their faces

'Girl we talking bout Tupac!' Jennifer said 'hell with DeVante'

'Jennifer!' I said shocked

'I'm sorry girl but he was beating you down like an animal and I think that's very cowardly of man' Jennifer stated facts

Yeah he did that shit but I still love him.....

'Anyways, back on Tupac......those nights when you were asleep, he would be in the hospital talking to you and I thought it was funny because he was basically talking to himself' Mary laughed making me chuckle a bit then realising what he said to me

'It's funny but I was actually listening to what he was saying' I said

'Then why didn't you wake up?' Faith asked

'My ass was in pain and I liked my eyes closed plus after he left, I zoned out' I told them

'Damn Girl, He feening for you like crazy' Mary dipped her lemonade

'Y'all are tripping, he probably saying those things because he didn't wanna lose me' I laughed it off but knew that Pac wasn't joking about the things he said

'Girl, we especially you know when Tupac is being serious or joking wit' you' Mary stated facts

'We are just friends and I like it that way, plus he got a girl.....' I said

'Well obviously his girl ain't doing him justice if he feeling you as more than a friend' Jennifer said

I zoned out of the conversation that we were having when I caught myself staring at Pac as he was with his friends, laughing away.......damn he looked so fine.....

'Errr......Justine.....' Faith snapped me out of my thoughts

'Uh - oh oh yeah yeah cool' I said acting as if I was listening their conversation

'Girl we know your ass wasn't listening to our conversation' Faith stated the obvious

'Girlllllll' I dragged out in a high pitch voice 'Yeah I wassssss'

'Girl your eyes were tied down on Tupac' Mary laughed

'But he's so pretty' I continued to watch his brown eyes glistening as the light shone in him through the window

'Justine! You acting you've never seen this nigga before' Mary laughed making us all so the same thing

'Girl I was knocked out for five days, I didn't get to see him when I was awake, all I got were phone calls so please don't judge my ass' I defended myself

'Jeez girl, I ain't in the mean to upset you' Mary put her hands in surrender

'Mhm....And She day she wanna be a friend' Faith muttered under breath but I ignored it

I genuinely looked like a stalker, I was so hooked up on Pac and I had no idea why. Not seeing him for a couple of days made me realise that I really do love him, but I'm not in love with him and I don't wanna upset him. Plus he has a girl and I don't care how much she has disrespected me but I've been cheated on before and I would hate for her to experience that because that shit hurts.

I nearly turned back around to the girls attention but my head was stiff when Tupac's head turned to my direction. He just stood there with a blank expression on his face, it was unreadable as well. I was waiting for a smile to come across his face but he just reverted back to his friends and started laughing again. My mood changed immediately, I wasn't happy anymore, I was angry. How you gonna stress yourself out when I could've nearly died and as soon as I'm here, you wanna start acting weird.

I wonder if he said those things because he felt guilty of something because it hell didn't look like he meant half the shy he was telling me about.....