August 1997:
JustineI miss them so much, the voice calls don't do enough for me. I need to see and head them physically.
'I know I ain't seen you since like forever but girl you look different- a good different' I heard a voice
'Ginuwine?' I thought as I the voice sounded familiar
'Girl it's me, Ginuwine, you don't remember me?' He asked as I turned around
'OMG!' I was surprised 'I had a feeling it would be you'
We went into a tight hug that lasted for ages but it was nice. He was always there for me when shit when south and god I can't forget about that kiss. We were really playing around that night, well I know I was......I think......
'Why you disappear without telling me?' He asked hurt
'I had to go, things got complicated but I'm here now' I smiled it off
It's weird, I didn't have Ginuwine in my head one bit then and it really pisses me off now because he probably must've thought I was using him and I would never do that.
'You look good though, who's been treating you right' he asked admiring my figure
What's good about my figure? I thought I looked like a mess.....and boy if he knew why the hell I've put on weight.....
'No one' I said
'Hmm' He bit his lip
I just wanted to melt.........but I couldn't which felt strange.....
'What you staring at?' I asked
'Huh' he snapped out
'Boy you know what I said' I said it a little bit seductively
'Watch yourself or you going to be in situations you wish you never end up in' he followed it on
'You dirty minded bastard' I muttered the last part
'Don't act your not that too' he said
'Shit you heard me' I got a little bit frightened
'What, you think I'm dead' he laughed
'Whatever' I responded as I walked over to the soundboard
'So what you doing there?' I felt his presence behind me
This nigga don't have nothing to do?
'I wanna come up with a comeback song' I said
'Awh you should do that song you were singing with your sister' he said
'What song? Everything' I asked
'I think it was that song' he said
'Wait, let me find the song' I told him
I have a little area I stored all my music before I went back to New York. I hope they are still here or I'm going to flip.
That's nearly three years of hard work!
'This song?' I asked uncertain
I put the song on and I wasn't really planning on this to be the song, see it's a nice song but I see that as an album song only.
'Yeah, this song sounds dope' he said
'I don't know, I'll have to think on that one' I said
'Okay, Whatever you say.....' he trailed of
'Hmm....anything new you produced?' I asked him as I turned the music off
'Well I've just came out with this song Tell me do you wanna and I'm also working on my second album' he said
'Second album?' I asked confused
'Have you been hiding under a rock?' He asked me
'Sorry I really tried to block myself from the spotlight' I chuckled a bit
'Why did you?' He asked
I took a seat on the chair really contemplating if I should tell him or not. I'm scared my information could be share with the wrong people, not like I don't trust him but someone could be eavesdropping.
'You don't have to if you-'
'No I should I should've told you but I was to busy focusing on myself, I shut a lot of people out my life' I said
That hit me when I remembered shutting Pac out my life.
'Things happened when Pac was known to be alive, I found out I was pregnant, reasons why I put on weight. The doctors told me that even if he survived his gun shots, he still wouldn't live for long which really pissed me off. I stormed of and went Back to New York telling everyone expect him. I thought that was a good idea but I was only hurting myself more. I wouldn't pick up his calls, no ones then I had this feeling that he hated me. I would write letters to myself, cut myself, I grew more and more guilty because I put him in a very dangerous position. I never told him I was pregnant and what was worst I was getting death threats, reasoning if you saw me on the news, I got shot. I lied to my girls saying that I told him pregnant but he found out in the worst way possible. I'm glad he didn't react in a bad way or I don't know what could've happened.'
I didn't once look at Ginuwine, I was staring at the ground, my eyes were heating up and I didn't want to act like a bitch.
'I'm-I'm Sorry' he apologised
'It's not your fault, it's the shit people in the world that like to make living people's life's hell, I lost Kadafi last year because of inconsiderate people' I nearly cried 'He was 19, hasn't even hit 20 and there he is, in his death bed. Sometimes I ask myself why wasn't it me? I know I sound ungrateful since God had given me more the once to live again but I just have that urge.'
'Wow, I didn't know you were going through a lot, I think it's good you had the break though, you seem better then before' he told me
'Well I gotta turn a new leaf' I smiled
'So did you have your child as yet' he asked
'Ginuwine, come on you see I packed on a few pounds' I laughed
'What's the name?' He asked
'Brie-Ella' I said
'Awh it's a girl' his eyes widened
'Yep, and it gon look like me' I boasted
'Well usually first borns don't always look like their mothers' he teased me
'Oh shut up' I hit him playfully on his arm
'Awh I've missed you so much' he laughed
'Me too' I said to him going into a hug
It got silent between us too as we stared at each other. Neither one of us broke away. The staring stopped as are lips connected. This wasn't playfully and I knew that because I had butterflies in my stomach. I was a feeling I haven't felt in a long time and it was nice to feel it again.
'Don't tell anyone what I told you' I reminded him as my head laid on his chest
'I got you' he told me
Oh boy......
A/N: For some of you that don't know the song, it's Everything by Mary J Blige.
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