The Aftermath

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August 1997:
Justine

I miss them so much, the voice calls don't do enough for me. I need to see and head them physically.

'I know I ain't seen you since like forever but girl you look different- a good different' I heard a voice

'Ginuwine?' I thought as I the voice sounded familiar

'Girl it's me, Ginuwine, you don't remember me?' He asked as I turned around

'OMG!' I was surprised 'I had a feeling it would be you'

We went into a tight hug that lasted for ages but it was nice. He was always there for me when shit when south and god I can't forget about that kiss. We were really playing around that night, well I know I was......I think......

'Why you disappear without telling me?' He asked hurt

'I had to go, things got complicated but I'm here now' I smiled it off

It's weird, I didn't have Ginuwine in my head one bit then and it really pisses me off now because he probably must've thought I was using him and I would never do that.

'You look good though, who's been treating you right' he asked admiring my figure

What's good about my figure? I thought I looked like a mess.....and boy if he knew why the hell I've put on weight.....

'No one' I said

'Hmm' He bit his lip

I just wanted to melt.........but I couldn't which felt strange.....

'What you staring at?' I asked

'Huh' he snapped out

'Boy you know what I said' I said it a little bit seductively

'Watch yourself or you going to be in situations you wish you never end up in' he followed it on

'You dirty minded bastard' I muttered the last part

'Don't act your not that too' he said

'Shit you heard me' I got a little bit frightened

'What, you think I'm dead' he laughed

'Whatever' I responded as I walked over to the soundboard

'So what you doing there?' I felt his presence behind me

This nigga don't have nothing to do?

'I wanna come up with a comeback song' I said

'Awh you should do that song you were singing with your sister' he said

'What song? Everything' I asked

'I think it was that song' he said

'Wait, let me find the song' I told him

I have a little area I stored all my music before I went back to New York. I hope they are still here or I'm going to flip.

That's nearly three years of hard work!

'This song?' I asked uncertain

I put the song on and I wasn't really planning on this to be the song, see it's a nice song but I see that as an album song only.

'Yeah, this song sounds dope' he said

'I don't know, I'll have to think on that one' I said

'Okay, Whatever you say.....' he trailed of

'Hmm....anything new you produced?' I asked him as I turned the music off

'Well I've just came out with this song Tell me do you wanna and I'm also working on my second album' he said

'Second album?' I asked confused

'Have you been hiding under a rock?' He asked me

'Sorry I really tried to block myself from the spotlight' I chuckled a bit

'Why did you?' He asked

I took a seat on the chair really contemplating if I should tell him or not. I'm scared my information could be share with the wrong people, not like I don't trust him but someone could be eavesdropping.

'You don't have to if you-'

'No I should I should've told you but I was to busy focusing on myself, I shut a lot of people out my life' I said

That hit me when I remembered shutting Pac out my life.

'Things happened when Pac was known to be alive, I found out I was pregnant, reasons why I put on weight. The doctors told me that even if he survived his gun shots, he still wouldn't live for long which really pissed me off. I stormed of and went Back to New York telling everyone expect him. I thought that was a good idea but I was only hurting myself more. I wouldn't pick up his calls, no ones then I had this feeling that he hated me. I would write letters to myself, cut myself, I grew more and more guilty because I put him in a very dangerous position. I never told him I was pregnant and what was worst I was getting death threats, reasoning if you saw me on the news, I got shot. I lied to my girls saying that I told him pregnant but he found out in the worst way possible. I'm glad he didn't react in a bad way or I don't know what could've happened.'

I didn't once look at Ginuwine, I was staring at the ground, my eyes were heating up and I didn't want to act like a bitch.

'I'm-I'm Sorry' he apologised

'It's not your fault, it's the shit people in the world that like to make living people's life's hell, I lost Kadafi last year because of inconsiderate people' I nearly cried 'He was 19, hasn't even hit 20 and there he is, in his death bed. Sometimes I ask myself why wasn't it me? I know I sound ungrateful since God had given me more the once to live again but I just have that urge.'

'Wow, I didn't know you were going through a lot, I think it's good you had the break though, you seem better then before' he told me

'Well I gotta turn a new leaf' I smiled

'So did you have your child as yet' he asked

'Ginuwine, come on you see I packed on a few pounds' I laughed

'What's the name?' He asked

'Brie-Ella' I said

'Awh it's a girl' his eyes widened

'Yep, and it gon look like me' I boasted

'Well usually first borns don't always look like their mothers' he teased me

'Oh shut up' I hit him playfully on his arm

'Awh I've missed you so much' he laughed

'Me too' I said to him going into a hug

It got silent between us too as we stared at each other. Neither one of us broke away. The staring stopped as are lips connected. This wasn't playfully and I knew that because I had butterflies in my stomach. I was a feeling I haven't felt in a long time and it was nice to feel it again.

'Don't tell anyone what I told you' I reminded him as my head laid on his chest

'I got you' he told me

Oh boy......

A/N: For some of you that don't know the song, it's Everything by Mary J Blige.