The Aftermath

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August 1997:
Justine

Well it was a good idea after all!

We just got done filming the music video for Everything and I want it to be premiered for September.

'Guess who' Tupac covered my eyes

'Boy you know I ain't gotta guess, I know your ass anywhere' I said

'Damn why you gotta ruin the vibe' he took his hands away from my eyes as I looked at him backwards

'What vibe' I said

'You lucky I love you' he kissed my forehead

He lucky I didn't lift my head up or I would've bust his lip!

'So what you doing here? Where's Brie?' I asked

'We both missed you so much, we had to come visit, I left Brie with Jennifer' he said 'and Brie don't want the bottle she wants your-'

'Boy I know' I said 'they getting real heavy though' I said

I need to let this milk go. I pumped some out in some of her bottles but damn the milk really don't run out.....

'And big too' he said

'Boy my eyes are up here' I said

'I know' he said plainly as I hit him on his arm 'OW!'

'How comes you knew I was going to be here?' I asked

'I have my ways' he smiled

'Hmm I'm sure you do'

'Look' he grabbed my arm 'I came here as well so we could work things out'

'Work things out' I laughed 'isn't everything fine?'

'Not that kind of working' he said 'I mean by starting over again'

'Starting over again?' I questioned

'Yeah, like doing what we did last year'

'Last year, what did we- no Pac we can't' I took my hand away from his

'Why?' He looked at me

'I don't want to ruin what we got' I said 'I nearly lost you I can't let that happen again' I said

'You never lost me, I was always here' he said

'It doesn't matter Pac, we just can't it ain't right for me and it ain't right for you' I told him

I'm not ready to get into a relationship, I said before I only see each other as friends, I don't want to jump back into that more and friend zone and fuck his life over again.

It would be nice that Brie-Ella sees us together 24/7 and I know that Pac wants that but if I do that, I'm only doing it to please Brie not myself. I'm not trying to be selfish or mean but I need to be comfortable with what I'm doing and making people happy before I make myself happy is not the way to go.

Plus, I'm playing with two men feelings. I fell in Tupac's trap the last time I came to see Brie and I ended up kissing Ginuwine a couple of days before.

A month later.......

I felt like I should reward myself, just released the song last week and everyone is hyping up. All I hear on the news is 'JUSTINE IS BACK!'
I'm getting booked for all these projects, my album is soon complete.....I'm just so happy!

There is one thing I wanna be happy about, me and Ginuwine. We've kept it lowkey but it's coming to the time where I want everyone to know, like I'm not ashamed of him so why not?

This gon' hurt Pac but he's just gonna have to deal with it. No matter how I turn him down, he still tries a way to convince me and sadly it doesn't work. I don't have that spark with him no more.

Me and Ginuwine went back to the studio, I don't know why but we just did. We decided to leave this party that we went to early. It just felt boring and I felt like working on some new songs with G, probably do a collaboration with him or so.

'So what do you think about us?' I held his hands

'What do you think?' He asked back

'We're just perfect' I said

He got closer to me that our lips touched. His lips were so soft. I wanted to melt right there as his hands traveled down to my ass. My arms snaked around his neck and my tongue was going all in but I couldn't continue.

One of my eyes opened and from the corner of it, I saw Pac.

Damn how he know where I would be, I don't tell anyone anything......

'So this is where you be instead of looking after Brie' he said dryly

'Pac' I was shocked

That's all I could say......

'Do you want me to-'

'Stay' I said as I was panicking

Why was I panicking, never cheated on no one?

'No he can leave' Pac got closer

'Pac please this ain't necessary' I said

'I said leave....Now' he raised his voice

Ginuwine got his stuff as he kissed me cheek before leaving 'I'll calm you later' he said

'Why man, why?' He looked at me like I did something bad to him

'Pac I didn't want you to find out this way' I said to him

'Well, how else was I going find out?' He said

'Pac I don't understand why you're so mad, it ain't like I cheated on you, were not even dating' I said

'But what about-'

'That was a mistake, I fell in your trap and couldn't get out if it, I didn't mean to play with your feelings'

'But I love you' he said

'Me too but I can't be with you just to make you happy, what am I benefiting from it?' I told him

'We can patch things up' he got closer to me as he tried to hold my hand

'No no I'm not doing that again' I said backing away

'Why' He asked

'Pac I've told you this over and over again, I just can't'

'Why won't you give me a proper answer?' He asked

'THERE IS NO PROPER ANSWER! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I SHOULD DO!' I shouted