Thursday is my last day of school. I am terrified. I haven't stopped going to school since, well, ever. I haven't stopped since high school. I am so scared. Im scared to not have this constant thing in my life. Ill have work, so thats good but.. what the hell do i do. And I have a ton to do before school is over. And its not like I like work. Like what am i supposed to do. I feel like I'm not prepared at all. And I don't know, its not a big deal to anyone else. Its not cool to anyone else. Its just whatever. But for me it was this huge thing in my life. And Its not like I'm not planning to go back, because i am. But still.. this time Im taking off.. I'm scared of it. I don't know. It sounds stupid and I don't think you care either. I mean why would you. You don't care about anything going on with me. You don't care to talk to me or see me. You don't care to argue with me anymore. I mean, i don't know. I just i feel wrong for wanting you now. I feel like its bad that I want to be with you. Its bad that I want to be included in your life. Its bad that I care. Its bad that I love you. Its bad that i feel anything towards you. Everything that I feel about you and with you just is bad I guess.
