I think it's sweet and nice that you think I have all these people that care about me like you have people who care about you. But let's break it down here. You have your friends, your family, and Patrick's family, plus probably Seth's family. All these people would be effected. All these people would miss you. Not like living is worth anything if you're doing it for someone else. You should be living for you. But let's put that aside for now. Look at who I have. My dad, Ashlie, Kylie, 3 cousins, my grandmother and 1 of my aunts. 8 people. Now 8 people aren't anything to laugh about. I think that's great that I honestly can tell myself that they would give a fuck if I died. But let's be real here. My mom would enjoy it because she gets to make it about her. Makenzie would be sad I'm not there to buy shit for her kid. I barely know any of my dads family. And my moms family only care about my mom. I have literally no friends. No one. Not one fucking person I could call my friend. Sara sure as shit isn't my friend. And I don't even know anyone else. And I in no may am saying that you have it better. I'm just saying. The next time you want to say "as do you" when I'm talking about all the people whose lives would go to hell without you, please don't. I'd rather keep it about you. Hear what you're thinking. Rather than you trying to point out how my life is okay also. Or you tryin to take care of me. I'm doing okay taking care of myself. It doesn't have to be about me. And I'd rather it not be. I want it to be about you. I don't want your help, I appreciate it so much, but I don't want your help. I want you to have your help. And like I said before. It is important to want to live for yourself. More important than living for anyone else. But if you have to live for other people for now, until you want to live for you, that's completely okay. Look at me. I've been living for 8 people for 6 years
