Fuck you for thinking those terrible things about me. Fu k you for thinking that it's so terrible that I worry about you having someone else. I'm so sorry that it's so terrible to you that I'm afraid to go through that again. And that I'm afraid for you to be someone else's. Fuck you for not understanding and for not listening. Fuck you for ignoring me. Fuck you for thinking that I don't care about you. Fuck you for not seeing that me telling you how I'm so terrified of losing you is me telling you that you mean something to me. Fuck you. Fuck you for thinking that I only care about you havin someone else. And fuck you for leading me to believe that it's bad that I'm worried about that. Fuck you for not seeing that I want to be there for you. I want to love on you. I want to do things for you. I want to be there. But fuck you for not giving a shit about what I want. Or how I feel. Fuck you for fucking with my feelings. Fuck you for not listening when I talk and just going off of your assumptions. Fuck you for being a hypocrite. I'm sorry that I don't want you to be with someone else. And I'm sorry that you don't care if I'm with someone else. Fuck you for every nice thing you said that doesn't mean shit anymore. Fuck you for only eating me for sex. Fuck you for pulling away when all I want is to see you. Fuck you. Seriously. Fuck you. Fuck you for not seeing how shitty the things you said were. And fuck you for thinking that I think you're an asshole for taking time out for yourself. Instead of listening to what I say. You're an asshole for how you treated me and what you said to me. I'm like talking to a Wall well do are you. You don't listen or understand. And you don't care to. Fuck you for making me feel like shit because I tell you what I'm afraid of and how I'm feeling. Fuck you. Fuck you for thinking I'm attacking you when I'm not. Fuck you for thinking I'm the fucking enemy here. You were the person of my dreams asshole. And now you treat me like shit. Fuck you for not understanding when I explain shit to you. Fuck you for not giving a fuck about me like I do for you. Fuck you for thinking that I'm not worried about you or thinking about you every second of every day. Fuck you for not understanding that this is the only part of my life that I feel like I can do something about so I actuallly want to do something about it. Fuck you for thinking that everyday I'm not worried about if you're eating or sleeping or taking care of yourself. Fuck you for thinking that I don't care about your well being. Fuck you for thinking that I'd be any better at handling you dying than you were at handling me. Fuck you for telling me constantly that I fucking add to your stress. That I add on to why your day is bad. Fuck you. If I'm so fucking terrible then block me so your fucking life will be better. Fuck you for taking shit out on me. Fuck you for how you think of me. I'm just the Fucking devil in your life so idk why you don't just fucking leave me out of it. Fuck you for saying that I don't ask how you are, like you'd ever answer if I asked. Like you'd ever confide in me. I Fucking tried. Fuck you for not realizing that. Fuck you for thinking that how you treat me is what I deserve.
