What the fuck am I honestly supposed to do. What the fuck do you want from me. My mind fucking won't let me sleep. With thoughts of you and whoever your new person is. Whoever you're passing the time with. Whoever is taking up the space I used to occupy in your mind. It's been what, a day, and I feel like crap. I want to talk to you. I want you to tell me you love me and that you want to be with me. I want you to tell me we can figure it out and that you just want me. Stupid hopes huh. I won't say any of that. And I have no way of knowing if it's really you reading this. But idk. It's not fair. It's not fair that I still love you and want you. And that you feel none of that. That you don't care to not talk to me. That you don't care if I'm in your life. That you'll just replace me in your mind, your heart, your fucking phone. You'll just replace me with some other girl. And that's just not fair. Why should some dumb girl get all of those things. When I spent the last 5 years loving you so much that t tears me up inside. Why does some no one get to know about you and get your time and effort. When I didn't. What's so bad about me. What makes me not good enough to you. It just sucks. It fucking sucks writing this hoping you'll tell me I'm wrong. And that you'll say that it's me and always has been and will be me that you want. That has your heart. It sucks because I know you won't. Because it's not true. It sucks that you don't care. And it sucks that I don't know what to do. And it sucks that me moving on means you can too and that you most likely already have.
