Fuck dude come on. Leave him alone. You have to fucking stop. You know you're bad for him. You know that you deserve this. You don't deserve for him to fight for you. Fight with you. You don't deserve to know if he's okay. You deserve to sit and worry. You deserve to think about him and someone else. Because he did exactly that and it happened. You fucked up and you deserve nothing from him. You broke him multiple times. You hurt him. And he didn't deserve it. He deserve for you to love him like he loved you. You let you being fucked up rub off on him. You fucked him up. You made him like that. You made him feel like you didn't love him. You self destructed and brought him down with you. You destroyed yourself and him. Leave him alone. Don't text him. Don't talk to him. It doesn't matter how you feel. You fucked him up. You need to stick to your word and leave his life. That's what he wants. And that's what he needs. You let your mind get to you and you fucked up again. And he deserves better. And you have to let him be okay and then find better. He deserves that. Please fucking let him go. Please fucking do what he needs for once. For once do what he needs. For once help him. This is how you help. You leave him alone. You leave his life. This is what he wants. He doesn't want to fight with you or for you. He wants nothing to do with you. And you deserve that. You need to stop. Breathe through it. Let him go. You have to let him go. He doesn't want you. And you have to be okay with it. You fucking did it. You fucked up. You're a shit person. And he deserves better. Don't look at his tumblr. Don't look at the songs he posts. They're not for or about you. You don't know what he is thinking or meaning by them. Don't do that to yourself and give yourself hope. Let him go. Don't think about him
