I think it's great that you can lie about not having a new person. But just telling yourself they're a "friend". That's what you did last time. I think it'd be awesome if you blocked me. So I can stop giving a shit about the fact that you couldn't care less about me. That I'm just one of those people who bother you that you have no want to talk to or have anything to do with. You don't love me. You don't care about me. You want to talk to anyone else rather than talk to me. What the fuck is so awful with me. What the hell is wrong with me. Why fucking me. Why can you spend your time with anyone else. But when it comes to me you don't want to. I thought you liked me. But I guess fucking not. You just lied for 6 years about how you felt about me. Because it's all Fucking gone now. I don't deserve that. I deserve more than that. I deserve someone who cares. Who does love me. And who does want to talk to me. And see me.
And.. you don't care. You don't care that's what I deserve. You don't care if you're treating me like I don't matter. I don't matter to you. You know how shitty that feels. To not matter at all to someone who means everything to you. To want someone who wants nothing to do with you. Idk what I did to you. To make you want to be mean to me. To treat me like crap. To make me feel like this. Idk what I did to deserve this. Wtf did I do to make you be so negative towards me. I know I'm not great but. Why hurt me like this. Why drag me along. Why do this to me. Why are you still around if you feel nothing for me. What the fuck is so wrong with me.
