I hope you didn't redownload this app. I hope you won't ever have to hear from me again. That's what's good for you. And I hope you know that. I hope you know that you will be okay. And I hope that you stay strong because you are. You're so strong. You're going to be okay. I love you. And I know you don't believe it. I'm so fucking proud of you. For everything. I'm proud of you right now for ignoring me and hopefully moving on with your life. Hopefully you're letting me go. I hope and pray for you. I really do. I pray that you'll be okay. I pray that your family takes care of you. I hope you stay strong like I know you are. I'm so fucking sorry that I couldn't pull you back from the edge. I wanted to, more than anything I wanted to. But I can't. I'm not a good person. I'm not good enough for you. And I hope you see that and stay away. I don't know why you stayed for so long. But I was selfish to let you. And I'm so fucking sorry. I'm so fucking sorry that I'm not a good person. I want to be. I want to be good for you. Good enough for you. But I'm not. And I'm so fucking sorry. You have no idea. But I hope you understand that I want to be there for you, but I can't. You're better off without me. And I'll always be here thinking about you. Hoping for your safety. And I'm so fucking afraid that I've pushed you over. It was selfish and fucked up for me not to tell you. I just didn't want to hurt you. And I feel like it's selfish to have told you also. Honestly before five seconds ago I didn't even think about you getting revenge. Doing something to hurt me. But I'd deserve it. I'd deserve the pain. And it wouldn't be your fault. None of this is. I love you so much. And I'm so fucking terrible and I'm so sorry.
