I'm sure you've noticed. Or maybe you haven't. But I'm going to fucking do what you deserve for once. For once I'm going to prove to you that I love you. A week ago you thought I was running away. That I didn't want to stay and fix what I fucked up. But I don't think you care now. And that's okay. I don't think you want me to try and fix it. And I understand that completely. But please don't think that I'm running to him. Because I'm not. I want to fix this. But that just isn't what you need. You need someone good. Someone who deserves you. I hope you read this and stop reading this. Please stop reading these. You need to move on. You need to be happy. You have good people around you. I'm always thinking of you. Always missing you. I'm always loving you. There's no one else. I didn't sleep with him. I don't want anyone else. You're good enough. You're kind and wonderful. You could have anyone you want. You deserve better than me. Physically and emotionally. You deserve the world. And I'm praying you get it. I always want to be there for you. But I can't be. I'm not good in your life. There's no one else. Please don't think that. I'm just trying to not be selfish. I'm trying to do what you want. Please understand. Please be safe. Please take care of yourself. I so much wanted to be the person to pull you back from the edge. I wanted nothing more. But I'm not. You were my person. But I wasn't yours. And I'll always cherish that. I will always be grateful that I got to have you in my life. But I am so fucking sorry that I was in yours. One of these days you'll understand. You'll take this pain I caused and it will make sense. You will take this and become better. You'll find someone better. I'm so sorry I couldn't be the person I wanted to be for you. I'm so sorry I couldn't be the person you wanted me to be. I'm sorry I didn't try as hard as I should've. You're worth all the effort in the world. I'm so sorry you chose the wrong person. I'm so sorry you ever met me. You deserve so much. And I'm so sorry I didn't give it to you. I'm so sorry I didn't realize all of this when it mattered. I love you so much sweetheart.
