I thought myself strong enough to be able to be with you. You had always talked about how the boys in your family aren't meant for relationships because of how you all are. I thought I'd prove you wrong. But I couldn't. Not when you left and pushed me away. Not when you tell me not to try. Not when you lose what you felt for me. Not when everything that was there for you is gone. Not when you don't care to talk to me or not. Not when you could take it or leave it in having me around. Not when you don't want to be with me. And I was stupid for thinking you'd want me. For thinking you'd want me to be those things for you. That you'd want me around. I was the stupid one. I was the person strong enough to never give up on you. To go to hell and back with you. To never leave. But you didn't want that with me. And I was stupid to think you would. I mean there's 7 billion people on the planet. And I thought I was special somehow. I thought as long as I was willing to try you'd want me to. Pretty fucking stupid huh. As if you'd lose anything good by not being with me. And you confuse me. You post this song saying wait and give me time. But when I want to try you tell me no. Time is scary. Space is scary. Because I know you won't ever want to come back. I know you won't want it to go back to how it was. I know those feelings you had for me won't come back. I won't ever be your person again. And you won't be mine. And I guess I have to let it go. I have to let it go that you don't want to be with me. And that you'd rather not talk to me or have me in your life
