You know what also sucks. I know you're not asleep. Because you're talking to your friend. Who I am sitting right next to. But. You don't text me back. And we were talking about you hurting yourself for Christ sake. I was worried about you. But you ignored me. Which makes me think like, who else do you ignore me for. It's not like a law that you have to text me until you sleep. But you sure as fuck can't text other people while you're not texting me. Like having an actual conversation. That's when it becomes ignoring. You knew I text you and you didn't want to fucking talk to me. You again chose someone else over me. And that you fucking ignored me when I was upset about something always coming up when I'm supposed to see you. You'd always rather do something else. It fucking sucks. You'd rather be with anyone else than me. Then why the fuck am I here. But you ignored me! I was upset and hurting because of you and you ignored me. All fucking day. But you could talk to other people. So what the fuck did I do to you. What the fuck makes you not want to talk to me or see me. Why the fuck am I not fucking good enough for you. I don't know why you didn't understand why I was upset about that. And I don't know what you don't understand about me being upset about you ignoring me. I don't know what you don't understand about how you Fucking are treating me. I would put off almost anything and ignore anyone for you. I always want to talk to you and see you. But you don't fucking feel that. You'd rather see or talk to anyone else. So why the fuck am I here. Why the fuck is giving up on me okay. I never gave up on you. Why the fuck is treating me like this okay. Why don't you love me or care
