the boy who changed my life. (harry styles and james mcvey fanfic)

chapter 89

charlottes point of view...

I got up at four in the morning to the crying sound of baby darcy, I picked her up and comforted her, moments later she was fast asleep.

I miss harry.

I have to admit it.

our cute little cuddles, his kisses where the best thing on earth, he was one of the best people with children and he was just everything to me.

but all that now has gone.

I put the baby back to bed, but there was no chance of me going back to sleep so I went down stairs and made myself a cup of tea.

I slipped on one of harrys shirts I pinched before he woke up that morning.

this was the only thing I have of him.

and it will never leave me.

I grabbed a mug and placed in a tea bag, I put the kettle on and it started to make a bubbling nose, I waited for a minute or two before it stopped.

I poured the boiling water in the mug and put some milk in it before taking it in two hands, I held it up by my chest making myself feel warm.

I sat back on the window cill watching the clouds past with my cup of tea.

'hey' I heard a faint voice, I turned my head and saw my mum.

'hey, what are you doing up at this time of the nigh?'

'I woke up and I can't get back to sleep, can I ask you the same?'

'the baby' I said looking back at the clouds.

my mum closer to me, she took my hand and a tear fell down my eye.

'I can see your stuggling, I can see you want to break down and cry everyday, I know its hard. I can feel your pain love, but don't worry. we'll get though this' my mum whispered.

I got down and gave her the biggest hug going, tears came out of my eyes uncontrolably.

'I miss him, I miss him that my heart feels like its broken. I miss him like all day is nothing without him. I miss him when the sun is shining' I whimped out.

'I know how you feel' she whispered in my ear, her hand rubbed my back.

'I can't do it any more mum, I need him'

'I know love, it will all come back together'

'how the fuck is it? I was the one who broke up with him! I was the one who was stupid and slept with another fucking boy' I yelled out.

'there, there now! we don't need any shouting. come on i'm putting you back to bed' she said before taking me back upstairs.

she tucked me into bed and kissed the top of my head, as she walked to the door I shouted her back.

'yes?'

'I love you' I smiled at her for the first time in weeks.

'I love you too' she said before going back to her own room.

I turned over facing the baby who was fast asleep, I smiled and another tear dropped.

I have my mum even though she has cancer who I can love, a beautiful daughter that reminds me of harry who I also love.

but I need that someone else.

harry.

bit emotional in the chapter? next one will hopfully be better.

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