I Didn't Know I Am Captured

Chapter (45)

PEACHIE

Hanggang ngayon hindi ako maka paniwala na nagawa ko mag rampa sa harap ng maraming tao na ang suot lang ay ang nighties. Hindi ako makapaniwala na kita ang dibdib ko.

I look at my self in the mirror. I'm wearing a simple t-shirt and a faded pants and 2 inch heels.

I smile bitterly. Forcing my self to smile. But I can't.

I touch my face.

I can't believe that no one ever mention me earlier na kita na ang dibdib ko.

Hindi naman kasalanan ni Rose. Nauna syang umalis bago ako pag sabihan na yung nighties ang isusuot ko.

Alam ko. Alam ko na yun ang susuotin ko. Pero hindi ako makapaniwala na kita na pala ang kaluluwa ko.

I close my fist and close my eyes.

Calm Peachie. Calm.

I look at my door. Wendon told me earlier that I'll wait him 'coz he will settle something in his boss office.

When I remember that he hug me earlier and he make me calm. I can't stop from smiling.

He's angry earlier because of what I look like. Because of what I wear. I understand him now. Kahit ako, galit ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko man lang tinignan ang ityura ko sa salamin.

Because you are full of yourself.

My phone vibrated and I saw Silver is calling me.

I answered it.

"Peachie. I'm sorry. Are you still at the building?"

"Yes. But..."

"What happened?"

"I can't go with you,"

"Are you okay?"

I nod and watch my self in the mirror.

"Maybe. I'm sorry Silver. I can't go now."

"No. It's okay. I should be the one to tell my sorry 'coz I let you wait me. This is not a gentleman of me."

I smile weekly. "It's okay."

"You sure you're okay?"

"I am,"

"Okay. See you next time then."

"See you." I end the call.

Huminga ako ng malalim. Tumayo ako at lumakad palapit sa bed. I really need to calm my self.

Wala na akung mukhang ihaharap sa labas.

I can't even watch my self in the mirror. I feel disgusted of what happened earlier.

How dare them! They didn't even tell me that my body is...

"Shit. This is shit."

I lay down in my bed. Kinuha ko ang isang unan at tinakpan ang mukha ko.