The Possessive CEO

CHAPTER XXXI

Chapter XXXI: Hear me

Marsh Lahm's Point of View

"I'm so fucking in love with you, damn it."

Wait, what?

I stayed glued in my place. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi niya.

"I don't know how or why. I just did. All I can do is to think of you. You lingered in my mind for as long as I can't remember. The only one who crosses in my mind constantly throughout the day specially at night. Para bang nakatira ka na dito." He pointed his head. "And here." And then he pointed his chest where his heart lies. "This thing keeps on beating and shouting your name. My fucking worthless life is dull until you came. Pumasok ka sa buhay ko ng walang pahintulot at ngayon gusto kong panagutan mo ako. It just feel like I'm losing control of myself specially if somebody is looking at you the way I do. Dahil gusto ko akin ka lang. Even your smile is mine. I want to be the guy who can make you smile and laugh. I want to make you smile in any way possible. Because baby you make me smile while looking at your smiling face."

"I'm jealous if somebody talks to you. When you entertain them. I'm so done pretending. Ayoko ng palihim lang kitang minamahal. I want to hold you, feel your warmth, to love you endlessly. Fuck! I really wanted to kiss you so bad. Kaya kung nakakita ako ng pagkakataon hinahalikan kita. Hindi ko na kasi mapigilan ang sarili ko. Pagdating sayo nagiging blangko ang utak ko. See? You have this effect on me. Loving you is the best thing that I ever did."

"I love the way you pout when confused or when you bite that damn luscious soft lips and fidgeting your fingers when you're nervous. I know when you bite your tongue preventing yourself to smile. Frowning when tired and hungry. You sleep like a fetus in woman's womb though the bed is too big for you. I find it cute. You always tie your hair up and you're so free and goddamn pretty even without make up. You're simple yet beautiful. In young age you already know how to survive in the society and I admired you for that. I love your face not because you're pretty—the main reason is it's full of life. You had this sincere expression on your face. Worried or not. Happy or sad or angry."

"I tried to resist it. I know for myself na hindi ako ang tamang lalaki para sayo but fuck the more I resist the more I want to own you! The more I avoid you the more I want to be with you. You mean so much to me. Ikaw ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. Mas lalo kitang minamahal sa mga araw na dumadaan. I fell hard and deep, babe. So damn hard and fucking deep. I love you so damn much."

I listened to his sudden outburst. I stood in front of him, starstruck. He left me speechless. Hindi ko namalayan na lumuluha na pala ako. I can't believe it! I never imagined this scenario. Buong akala ko ako lang ang nagmamahal at nasasaktan. He's in love with me too! Masyado akong nao-overwhelmed sa naririnig ko. Para bang nakalimutan ko na magsalita. Dapat pala nirecord ko ang boses niya dahil ang sarap pakinggan paulit-ulit.

"Are you just going to stand there? Say something please. I'm so nervous and why the fuck are you crying?" I flashed a little smile. The mighty Kalev Stanislaski knows how to feel nervous. He's a human after all.

"I'm not be a good guy but please save my fucking soul." Siguro kung may makakita lang sa akin sa kalagayan ko ngayon mapapagkamalan akong baliw dahil umiiyak ako habang pinipigilang ngumiti. He looks so helpless and this is actually the first time I saw him vulnerable. "Stop crying, love. You know how much I hate it when I see you crying." Hindi ba niya alam ang salitang tears of joy. His eyes were pleading.