The Possessive CEO

CHAPTER XLV

Chapter 45: Tears

Marsh Lahm's Point of View

    "Marsh, please, stop crying. Ako ang nahihirapan while looking at you. You look paler than before." Natatarantang pahayag ni Tori. I can't help myself but to cry. Matapos sabihin ni Kalev ang lahat ng 'yun ay dumiretso ako sa puntod ng mga magulang ko and then wept. Buti na lang hindi niya ako sinundan. I left him in his office.

Plus I have nowhere to go at nakita ko na lang ang sarili kong kumakatok sa pinto ng condo unit ni Tori. Nagulat siyang makita akong umiiyak at wala na siyang magawa kundi yakapin ako at yumakap naman ako sa kanya pabalik. It's been three days. Three days na akong nagsstay sa condo ni Tori. At araw-araw akong umiiyak na walang palya.

"Drink this para hindi ka ma-dehydrate." I get the glass of water in her hands at tsaka uminom. At tsaka pinunasan ang luha ko. Hindi ko pa rin maiwasang masaktan while remembering what happened this past few days. Hindi kasi talaga maiiwasan ang makaramdam ako ng betrayal and of course, masaktan ng lubusan.

"Ano bang nangyari Marsh? Noong isang araw ko pa gustong itanong sayo. Gusto mo ba tawagan ko si Kalev so he can take care of you." I panicked when I heard his name.

"No please. Not Kalev."

"Okay, okay calm down Marsh." She patted my shoulders at tsaka umupo sa kama kaharap ko. Sinabi ko lahat ng nangyari sa aming dalawa ni Kalev these past three days. Ngayon lang ako nagkalakas loob sabihin sa kanya ang mga nangyari. I know I can trust her. She's listening to me attentively without asking a question.

"And I saw many stolen pictures of me. I got scared. When I saw him, para bang hindi siya ang Kalev na nakilala ko. He's kinda different, his aura says it all. How can he keep a secrets from me? Lalo na at involve siya sa pagkamatay ng magulang ko." Eto na naman ang mga luha ko, hindi na naman maiwasan sa pagtulo.

I'm trying not to cry in front of Tori, trying not to look pathetic but tears is something that I can't control.

"Please don't tell him that I'm here. Gusto ko muna makapagisip. Please help me Tori." Tumango naman siya and held my hands.

"I will definitely help you Marsh. Pero may tanong ako sayo and you need to answer me honestly." I nodded.

"What are you feeling right now?"

Ano nga ba? Ano ba ang dapat maramdaman ko ngayon?

"Yung actions na ipinakita mo kanina sa harapan ng pinsan ko, normal lang na 'yon ang gagawin mo. Nasaktan ka kaya naman naging emotional ka. And when you're emotional all you can think is your own without considering others. It's normal." I looked down, fidgeting my fingers.

"I'm not okay. The past, it's all coming back. I started playing the what-if-game again. What if I didn't persuade my mother to go to the recital competition, what if I didn't meet Kalev, what if..."

"Ssshhh..." Tori cut me off and hug me.

"I'm hurt." I said in a low voice. "Betrayed, broken, wounded. My heart is aching, the pain pierces through my heart. Every words coming from Kalev's mouth stung." Kinapa ko ang kanang dibdib ko. Hindi ako makahinga ng maayos.

"You're so strong Marsh. Ikaw lang ang taong nakita kong umamin na hindi ka okay. See? Most of the people I encountered told me that they are all okay even they're not. Unlike you, you're too honest with your feelings. You aren't afraid to show me what you really feel. This is just a phase, Marsh. Pagsubok lang to between you and Kalev." Umiling ako.