War Torn

Chapter 71

Felicity pov
They kept me for a week, till the released me.

I got my things together as Martha signed my release papers. Ava and Harry were with me, since I was not allowed to be left alone. Harry was usually the one who stayed with me, Ava was usually the second person to stay with me if Harry wasn't available.

Harry gave me my jacket and we left through the back entrence. We got into the car and Ava got in the front seat.

The drive pulled out but didn't head towards our cottage in the country.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"Granny wants to speak with us." Harry said. I was going to ask why but I knew why.

We pulled into Buckingham Palace and Harry's door opened and he got out before helping me out. We then went inside and up to Her Majesty's private study. Harry stopped before we got to the door.
"Are you coming?" I asked.
"I'm not, Granny wants to speak with only you." Harry said.
"Alright," I Said, that made me more nervous, that I was seeing the Queen alone.

I went to the door and a butler went in first and introduced me. I went in and curtsied before approaching her. Her corgies jumped up on my legs.
"Stop it," Her Majesty scolded her dogs.
"How are you Felicity?" She asked.
"I'm alright," I Said as she motioned to the chair across from her. I was glad she allowed me to sit, normally you'd have to stand.
"Alright for someone who tried to take their own life." Her Majesty Said.
"Yes ma'am." I Said as I rubbed my bandages.
"Tell me Felicity, was there a motive?" Her Majesty Asked.
"Yes, I was intending on taking my life." I Said.
"And What fueled that wish?" Her Majesty Asked.
"Trystan," I said.
"And how have you had contact with Mr. King?" Her Majesty Asked.
"I was reading the letters he wrote to me. That's what fueled the self harm and the cuts on my arm. That was my first attempt." I Said, I didn't want to talk about this, not this soon.
"And the second attempt that ended up you being hospitalized?" She asked.
"Trystan again, I stupidly went and visited him. He told me to finish the job, and that's what I attempted to do." I was now clutching my wrists and digging my nails into the bandages.

I didn't want to be here, I didn't want to be here.

"Are you aware that Princess Diana attempted suicide five times while married to Charles." She said.
"I knew she had thrown herself down the stairs as an attempt but I didn't know there were four other times." I said.
"She threw herself into a glass case, she cut her wrists, her chest, and her thighs." Her Majesty said.
"Why are you telling me this? If you're trying to make me feel bad. It's working." I said.
"I am just concerned about Harry. He and Will both knew of their mother's baggage. I don't want the same for you and Harry." Her Majesty said.
"If anything Harry has helped me through my trials and tribulations." I said as I stood up.

"I am not Diana. I may have similar problems that she had, but I'm not in a toxic marriage. I love my husband, he loves me and we love our children. Yes there are times when I hate being a member of the royal family. But that's because of the press and the media, criticizing and attacking me the second I step out of line or I do something they find weird." I exclaimed.
"Felicity sit, I am Sorry if I upset you." Her Majesty said. I nodded as I gripped onto my hand.
"I except your apology." I said as I sat down.
"I just wanted to make sure this was not you trying to grab attention." Her Majesty said.
"It wasn't, it was real." I said. "If you would allow me, I would like to go to a rehabilitation center. There's one in Scotland that takes women for a long as they need." I said.
"Well Christmas is next week and we will all be in Sandringham. You may go once the New Year is over. Harry can take over your engagements till you are back." Her Majesty said.
"Thank you," I Said.
"Have a good day, and give your children a kiss for me." Her Majesty said.
I stood and curtsied.
"I will," I said.

The door opened and Harry came in. He bowed to his grandmother then went over and kissed her cheek.
"You take good care of Felicity, Harry." She said.
"I will, Granny." Harry said.

Harry and I left and went to Kensington. We went to our apartment and Will and Kate were there with our children. They stood up.
"How are you?" Kate asked as she came over to me.
"I'm better." I Said as she hugged me.
"You all gave us a scare." She Said.

I didn't respond. Milo got up from his bed and I knelt down and hugged him.
"Why didn't Milo alert me of your self harm?" Harry asked.
"Because I would lock him out of the bathroom." I Said as I buried my face into Milo's coat.
Dane came over and I gave him a hug as Sofia toddled over. I hugged them both.

"I'm so sorry," I Said to them.
"Why Mummy?" Dane asked.
"You'll understand when you're older." I Said.
"We'll let you four be alone. Come along George and Charlotte." Will said as he ushered his family out.
"Will saw the helicopter and sprinted across the field. Charlie told him what happened and then he took our children over to their house and told Kate what had happened." Harry said.
"I'm sorry I'm like this." I Said.
"Like What?" Harry asked.
"Broken." I Said as I held Sofia in my lap.
"Yes you are damaged but you are not broken beyond repair." Harry said then kissed my forehead.
"I believe you can get better and I will be right by your side the entire way." Harry said then kissed my head.
"thank you." I Said as I leaned against him.
"I am right here. I always am, I always have been and I always will be." Harry said.
"thank you." I Said.

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A/n:Thank you for reading
-Princess