TyraSays: This is a forewarning to you, readers. You might encounter foul words while reading this chapter. :)
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< Madison Alexis' POV >
"Please come back from outer space, Alexis." Eh? I was cut off from my thoughts by the one who said that. Si Vincent pala nung nilingon ko.
"Erm, you were saying something?" pagtanong ko sa katabi ko.
Tinawan niya ako ng slight. Eh? What's funny? Weird. "I said, you seemed worried about something. Mind sharing?"
"Hayy. Ewan ko din. Pero wala naman siguro 'to, nothing that I can't handle. Thanks for the concern though."
"Alam mo Alexis, may mga bagay na hindi mo kaya kung ikaw lang mag-isa. And by how you make me see it, you absolutely need someone to help you." payo niya sa akin.
"Hayy. You are really concerned, aren't you? Don't be, ayos lang ako Vincent. I swear."
Ngiti na lang yung ibinigay niyang sagot sa akin. Ayos na yun, ayoko kasing pinag-uusapan yung mga nangyayari sa akin. Nakaka-stress lang.
Then out of nowhere, my phone vibrated from my pocket. Kinuha ko iyon at tinignan kung sino yung nag-message.
It was from Kuya, drinamahan ako sa txt. Apparently, he read na daw my appreciation letter kaya daw he regrets not sending me to school earlier. Sabi pa niya, he will always be there for me no matter what. He made me smile at that. Tinago ko na rin yung phone ko after, hindi ko na rereplyan kasi nasabi ko naman na lahat nung gusto kong sabihin dun sa letter ko eh.
Ilang minutes pa ay nag-simula na ang class hours.
Ngayon lang ulit ako walang naintindihan sa mga tinuturo sa amin sa ilang buwan ko na sa eskwelahang ito. I just absentmindedly stare at the writings on the board, tinitignan ko lang pero hindi ko maintindihan. It was like the writings on the board were written on Korean or Japanese.
My mind wanders far from here, nasa kadulu-duluhan siya ng aking mga iniisip.
Mabuti nga at mababait itong mga katabi ko. Iniaayos nila ako kapag nakukuha ko yung attention nung teachers namin. Ibinubulong rin nila sa akin yung mga sagot kung sakaling tinawag ako ng teacher to answer a question. After each instances, I give them a weak smile then my mind automatically travels back to my thoughts.
Napakarami kong iniisip ngayong araw na'to. Kinakabahan ako sa pagbalik ko sa bahay na yun for I didn't know what would happen. I contemplated on changing my earlier decision many times, gusto ko na lang manatili kasama si Kuya at maging ligtas. Pero hindi, I have given my word to Mom. She expects me to be back, she wanted me back.
Kung ako lang, I have no intentions to go back to that house. I don't want to die just yet. Pero it's Mom that I am more worried of. Though it seem impossible, she wanted us to be like before. Yung point daw na masaya lang kaming apat, yung nakaraang hindi ko na maalala. How can I remember memories when it was more than a decade ago? And surely, that memories got erased by the horrific decade that passed by.
