Irrevocably (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

Persephone's POV

"P-p-persehone" He stuttered as he let Philip go and approach me.

"You don't get to call me that. You don't even have the right to even look at me." I spat at him.

The pain was evident on his face. What a good look for him.

"Honey, I'm sorry. I was doing fine, we were doing fine. You just had a meltdown. I-i'm sorry you had to see that but he pushed me to do that" Zach calmly reasoned out

I smirked at his answer.

"Yeah Zach, blame the victim that's where you're good at anyway. IT WILL NEVER BE YOUR FAULT! IT WOULD ALWAYS BE OURS!" I shouted at him while pointing a finger at him "You will never own up to your mistakes! It will always be us! It's his fault that's why you punched him! My fault that's why you abused me! BUT WHEN IS IT GONNA BE YOURS ZACH! WHEN?!" I screeched and flailed my arms around

Everything that I have bottled up all these months has led to this. I don't have anything to lose.

"I'm sorry! I'm so fucking sorry! Please..please " He cried, his arms were shaking.

"SORRY?! IS SORRY ENOUGH TO BRING THE OLD ME BACK?! IS SORRY ENOUGH TO BRING ME, MY SON, BACK? MY SON! ZACHARY! OUR SON! IS YOUR SORRY ENOUGH TO BRING HIM BACK!?" I shouted at him, anger and misery took over by this point.

I have nothing to lose. I also have nothing to gain. So what for? I let out everything that I've been keeping for the past few months. Every feeling I kept bottled up inside- I let go. I no longer cared who I hurt, I want them to see what they did to me. I want them to feel even an inch of hurt that I went through.

He shook his head no to answer my question, his voice wasn't strong enough to speak.

"I've heard you say sorry countless times! I forgave you countless of times! Because I blamed myself! There! You heard it right! I blamed myself, Zachary! If I didn't love you as much, I wouldn't even be in this hellhole! It would have hurt less watching you marry someone else!" I sobbed while letting everything out

"I'm sorry, god I'm sorry. I tried to make everything right! When I lost you, I lost myself too. I tried fixing myself, Persephone. I did, this was the first time since you went away, the very first time I punched someone. " He explained to me while he was having his own meltdown

"I hope you really lost yourself, Zach. Because you are nowhere near to what I had to go through. NOT ONE BIT." I spat

He never felt like the world was against him. He never felt what it was like to get everything taken away from you without you even doing anything. I hated being the person in the wrong place and at the wrong time. I never did anything vile my whole life! SO why was I being punished like this? Why was I being hurt like this? Why are they hurting me when all I did was obey them.

"Baby, please come home with me.." Mom tried to diffuse the situation.

"No Mom. I'm ending this right here and right now." I said to her

"I didn't have you to begin with for me to lose you. But I lost myself, Zach, literally. I lost myself because of the shitty thing I used to believe in-- LOVE. Fucking love! But what did you do with that? You fucking beat the love out of me Zach. AND BOY DID IT FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD." I reminded him of all the times he laid his hands on me.

"I goddamn wished you ended me right there. Dying by your arms felt like the easy way out, I'd rather that than being able to live as if nothing happened." I continued shouting at him. My knees were weak, because of that I fell to the ground again clutching my chest while I let it all out.