Oh no. Now Shawn will think I'm so selfish and mean.
"Uh... I need to the bathroom" Brittney says and she walks in. It's just me and Shawn our side.
"What do you mean you want to go home?!" Shawn looks really offended by the thought I wanted to go. It has nothing to do with him. I mean, well.... it does, but.... whatever.
"Shawn I'm sorry. I'm just not feeling well." I say. It's true I'm really not feeling good. I feel a bit sick, and I have this massive headache. I just want to go. I now that I'm a little selfish but, I don't know I had different wants for this night. Is that so wrong?
"Why What happened?" He asks. He looks concerned. Now I feel bad. He puts the shots on the floor and he sits next to me.
"Shawn I know you wanted me to have fun tonight. I'm sorry I Ruined everything." I say.
Shawn is looking me in the eyes. He smiles at me and and he wipes my tears with his thumb.
"Don't cry" he whispers. He takes his hand off my face, "I just wanted for once to do something for you. You know, every time I came over to your house I was mostly with Lucas. I know I'm like 2 years older than you, but I felt like we are friends too. And I also felt like I never gave you much attention. And so I thought that this birthday party will let you know that I do care. And that you do mean to me." He says. Oh - My - God!!!!!
"Shawn I know that. Of course. You didn't have to do anything for me to prove that. I already knew." I say. I look at him, my tears are fading away.
"Can you please take this shot with me and can we please go back inside and have the best night of our lives?" He asks. turning around and he takes both shots to his hands
I look at him. Not sure at my feelings, don't know what to do, I take the shot and I drink it right away. "Let's go" I say standing up. Shawn looks at me. he takes the shot and he looks at me again smiling, I'm offering him my hand to help him stand up, he takes it and we both walk inside holding hands together. Like a dream coming true.
I can't lie, holding his hand felt good but also so strange. I let him go. We go back inside and suddenly the music isn't as loud as it was before. Me and Shawn are dancing and taking a few more shots. I see a lot of my old high school friends including Jack and Alex who moved to NYC I think.... we all had a good time. I still didn't feel so good but I tried to push that feeling away. I tried to feel better by smiling and drinking and dancing and getting closer to Shawn.. but that bad feeling didn't leave me.
I ran outside I couldn't find the bathroom and I started to throw up. I don't know what happened or why it happened..
"Hey wow are you ok?" Lucas came outside and he held my hair. "Yeah I'm fine" I say as I'm wiping my mouth with my sleeve.
"You don't look fine, what's going on?" He asks. I sit down, not next to my puke. And Lucas sits next to me.
"I have no idea what is happening. Everything was ok and suddenly I started to feel bad an hour ago. I think I'm sick. I don't know" I say. Lucas gives me a Hug and he says "do you want to go home?" Lucas is looking at me, he knows I want to go just by the face I make him. "Come on, let's go" he says.
"No, Lucas. I can't" I say "you guys did so much for me, I don't know what's going on with me... I want to stay, and have fun, and I didn't even see mom and dad or Bryson." I say "I know you don't really like surprises, I'm sorry for that. Shawn insisted on doing this. I thought you'd like it.. I'm sorry you aren't happy" he says.
"Lucas, I'm happy. I'm really happy. I actually had fun for like, 30 minutes dancing and drinking and just having fun. But I don't know what's going on, I think I'm a Little sick. It's not because of the party. I swear. I want to go back inside and to keep dancing and getting drunk and whatever." I say
"But you aren't feeling well" he says "I know, that's why I'm bummed...." I say.
To be honest, at first I didn't want to stay. After I went outside the first time.. I just wanted to go home. But after Shawn talked to me and we got back inside and I had a good time, I'm not sure if I want to go. I'm just not feeling so good. It's not the party I swear.
Shawn walked out side with Alex "what's going on? Why are you out here again?" He asks. I don't know what to say. I'm embarrassed.
"Hey girl" I stand up and Alex gives me a hug
"Hey Alex" I say.
"Hey Alex lets go get some drinks" Lucas says "ok" she says and they walks back in.
Lucas is looking at me smiling "thank you" I mute to him.
"What's going on with you?" Shawn is looking me into the eyes..... oh wow.
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My brother's best friend
Romance"Do you have a crush on me?" He asks "No.." I try to deny it. "I think you do..." he says and he gets closer. He is as close as we've never been before. I can smell his perfume. It smells so good. He touches my face and I can feel my heart beat ris...
