"Do you have a crush on me?" He asks
"No.." I try to deny it.
"I think you do..." he says and he gets closer.
He is as close as we've never been before. I can smell his perfume. It smells so good. He touches my face and I can feel my heart beat ris...
I am completely speechless about what Shawn just told me. I'm just looking at him, with no idea how to respond. Like what the fuck? I can't believe this is actually happening to me. I feel like this is all a dream.
He said he loved me?! And he fucking wrote me a note?! Oh my god!
It's 6:30 and Brittney texted me. "Excuse me for a sec" I say. Thank god she texted me I have no idea what I should say to him now. I look at my phone.
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What the fuck?
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She's sorry. Why is she sorry? And why can't she just tell me who that guy is?
Whatever. "Is everything ok?" Shawn asks me. I look at him and he looks nervous. I can't believe he just told me he had a crush on me since 4 years ago. I'm still in shock, And now he is back and he waited SO long to kiss me... oh my god. I feel the butterflies all over my stomach and I feel the happiness that is tingling all over my body.
I look at him and I want to kiss him, I'm scared. But I still kiss him and we start to make out, even though was so scared.
"I'm sorry I turned you down 4 years ago." I say, looking In his beautiful eyes that are so sparkly and just amazing.
He looks at me, smiling a bit, looking down at floor as he bite his lip and he gives me a look and than he gives me the most passionate kiss in the whole world.
I heard the door slamming and Lucas's voice saying, "Yo B? Shawn? Are you here?"
"Shit! Uh...... Shawn go to the bathroom" I say. Shawn runs into to the bathroom as Lucas walks into my room. "Hey" I say. "Hey.. do you know where Shawn is? He said he got invited to this cool party tonight and that he wanted to go." Lucas says
"Uh.. He is in the bathroom." I say. "Oh, ok" he says and walks out of my room.
Shawn walks out of the bathroom looking at me. "I'm not going to that party. I'm sorry I treated you like shit about that. I was just hurt by the thought you still don't see me as something more than a friend. I'll cancel" he says.
"What? No Shawn. Don't cancel. Go to the party have fun. I was about to say, say hello to Camila from me but I'm not sure that's a good idea. So yeah.. We'll talk about it tomorrow or whatever." I say. "Ok. Oh right.... and also you said you and Brittney are going to that new Chinese restaurant down town.. right?" He asks. "So it's not like you are staying here all alone.. you have plans too"
"Yeah totally." I say. "Ok cool so I'm going. I'll see ya tomorrow" he says.
He looks at me for a sec confused, is he supposed to give me a goodbye kiss or a hug or maybe say something...?!
He just walks away. I'm glad he chose to just walk away. I didn't know what to do either. What are we now? I mean, I'm so confused...
He comes back in the room and he walks closer and closer and he is right in front of me and he is holding my face with his hands looking me in the eyes.. he is still looking and I'm in shock. I'm completely confused by this. I never imagined Shawn just looking me in the eyes like that while holding my face. He kisses me, so passionately. I close my eyes and I enjoy the moment.
"Goodnight" He says looking me in the eyes and letting go of my face. he walks out.
What just happened?
I walk out of my room and I see Lucas on the couch watching 13 reasons why. I told him about that show.
I look around and I see Shawn with his boxers putting his pants on. Wow.
"Hey, you coming to the party with us?" Lucas asks. What am I supposed to answer? To say yes? I want to come but I'm not sure it's a good idea.
"No she can't.. she's going with Brittney to that new Chinese place down town. She can't cancel last minute..." Shawn says. What is that supposed to mean? Of course I can cancel last minute... I mean, that's what Brittney did.
I look over at Shawn, he is shirtless. Oh deer lord. How many times I dreamt about this day...
"Yeah.. I can't cancel on Britt last minute... whatever you guys go and have fun" I say.
It's 11 pm I'm just watching videos on YouTube... it's so boring.
@Camila_cabello: Best friends stay best friends no matter what!! @shawnmendes #partytime
Camila posted this on Twitter... I wonder if he is having more fun at the party last night or today... I bet today. Last night I was a total party pooper and he had to walk me home.
After another hour I get a text from Shawn
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I cant believe I need to go and pick them up and I have to order a cab. Shawn better pay me back!
It's been 25 minutes and the cab finally arrived. In that time I got dressed, I have to look my best. I mean, I'm going to a celebrity party.. I also made myself a cup of coffee to wake up and to be fresh before the party.
I'm not sure how much time I would actually spend at the party but ok...
It's been a 20 or 25 minutes car ride to get to that stupid party and it's 1 am. I walk in to this amazing party and I spy with my little eye: Camila Cabello and Shawn Mendes dancing and having fun... why am I suddenly super jealous?!
