My brother's best friend

Chapter 26 - Don't go out with him

"Cool. I'll pick you up at 8" he says. Holly shit. Adam Joffrey just asked me out. What?!?! How is this even real? Omg.

"Hi I'm gonna go sleep at my parents's house tomorrow just so you know" Shawn walks in my room. "Sounds good" I text Adam and I put my phone aside.

"Uh.... ok, Is everything ok?" I ask. "Yeah.. it's just I want to go and see my family and you know, spend some time with them.." he says. "Oh yeah of course" I'm not sure what is going on.. he looks like he want to go be with his family... but from the other point of view it looks like something happened... "Shawn..." I start talking but he closes the door, locking it and he walks towards me and he pushed me to the bed so we are both laying down and he is on top of me almost kissing me... WOW. What the fuck was that? That was so intense... like, WOW.....

"I'm sorry" he says getting off me slowly and confused. I sit down confused as well, and Shawn is walking in stress at the room. "Is everything ok?" I ask. He isn't answering me.

I stand up going to him stopping him from walking by putting my hands on his shoulders and I look at him. "Hey Shawn.." Before I can even speak he starts talking "Don't go out with that guy" he says. "What?" Wait, seriously?! "I don't know why you told me about him but.. please don't go out with him" he says looking me in the eyes. I slowly take my hands off his shoulders...

Hold up. So does this mean Shawn is jealous...? Oh my god.... that's so sweet and I'm flattered and kind of turned on by that. Oh my god. "Why not? He seems nice.." I say. "Michelle, please don't" He says. HOLD UP! He said my name. My freaking name. I don't think in the last 10 years I heard him calling me Michelle and not B.

"But..." I was about to say something but I couldn't say anything because Shawn held my face starting to kiss me so passionately I couldn't breath. WOW.... I like this side of Shawn!

Shawn stopped. He looks me in the eyes, "Maybe it's not a good idea I'll move in with you guys" he says pushing me away.

What the fuck does he want from me? I seriously don't get it. By the way that kiss was.... holly fuck. So freaking good. Ugh why is this so complicated...?

"Shawn you are so confusing.." I say. I go back to my bed sitting, "Look, I know this is awkward and all but we need to get throw this. I don't want us to stop being friends..." I say. And yes, I do have feelings for him and I want to jump on him so badly. Like wtf he is so hot. But I can't do that. So he has to realize we can't do anything but staying friends. And trying to move on.

"I know, I don't want us to stop being friends too.." he says sitting next to me. "Look, I think since I came back and we got close things are really weird maybe I just need a day or 2 with my family to think about some stuff."
He says. "Yeah ok. If you think that will help the situation and we can get throw this than yeah. Great" I say. "But I still don't want you to go out with that guy" he says. "Shawn.. look, I can't deny I have feelings for you, but if I won't try to do something with my life I will forever stay in the same place. And I'm not sure I want that.." I say. Shawn looks a little mad, I don't know why he looks like he is maybe pissed about something. "Ok, look, you know how I feel about you and I don't know if you know this about me but I sometimes get jealous.. and I just can't see anyone else with you. At least not now" he says. Awww... I can't believe he actually have feelings for me and he is jealous seeing me with another man. Wow.. "Why can't we be together?" I ask. The look on Shawn's face. I don't even know how to describe it. It's lit up and he looks glowing. "What do you mean?" He asks. "It's kind of clear we are into each other... why can't we just be together?" I ask. I feel weird saying that out loud. But I really don't get it. Why? because of Lucas? Because of Brittney..?