"Shawn I'm sorry that I—" I ran aside and I threw up again.
"Holy shit B.. what's going on? Did you drink too much?" Shawn says as he is coming to and he holds me hair and he touches my back.
"I'm good. I'm just feeling a bit off." I say
"Do you want me to take you home?!" He asks
I hate to say it but, "yes. Thank you" I say. "Ok Just Wait one minute I'll go get my keys I think I gave them back to Lucas" he says. He let goes of my hair and I am just standing and trying to breath. Shawn walks inside and after 3 or 4 minutes he comes back with the keys and I remembered that he drank and he can't drive us home.
"hey Uh... Shawn we can't drive... we drank a little." I say. "ok, so do you wanna walk home?" He asks "it's like 15 minutes drive... it will take us forever if we walk" I say "so? It's gonna be fun. ok I'm just gonna go bring Lucas back his keys" he says. He goes back to Lucas brings him the keys and he comes back outside.
"Come on" He says. We start walking and I feel bad for dragging him out of the party. He did this party for me. And we are the first 2 people to leave.
I also feel a little weird not saying goodbye to anyone.. you know, at the end of the day this is, my birthday party.. I didn't even say Hi to my parents.. I saw them at first for like a split second but I didn't really get the chance to say Hi. I didn't even say Hello to Bryson.
"Penny for your thoughts?" Shawn asks.
"I'm just disappointed that I decided to go home. You really worked hard for this party and I know I messed everything up. And I'm sorry you have to walk me home... like I'm some sort of baby." I say. I feel like I'm about to throw up again, I really don't know what is going on with me.
"Don't be disappointed, at least we had a few minutes of fun. It's really ok. I'm bummed you don't feel so good." He says "yeah.. I know this sucks." I say "I really looked forward for tonight"
"Yeah yesterday at dinner you almost turned into a tomato... did you know I wanted to ask you out?" He asks.
Ok Mendes, first of all why did you talk about the blushing at dinner thing??? Why??! Second of all, technically you did not ask me out. It was a cover for me to get to the party.
"Uh... you didn't really asked me out but whatever" I say. "Excuse me? I literally said: do you want go out with me? ... dude how can you think I didn't ask you out?" He asks.
Ouch. He called me dude. "Ok dude, you just asked me out as a cover but not because you wanted to ask me out.... you just needed me to get to the party somehow" I say "and that's totally ok.."
"Wait, hold up. Are you seriously saying that I didn't ask you out?" I don't know how to react to that.
"You know what..? Fine. would you like to go out with me tomorrow?" He asks
"Shawn.. what?" I'm so confused by This.
"Do you what to go out with me tomorrow, no surprise birthday party, no cover. No anything. Just Me and you." He says.
"And it won't be weird?" I ask. Wtf? Why did I say that. I'm so stupid.
"Why would it be weird?" He asks "just 2 friends hanging out." He says.
Oh I see, it's just 2 friends hanging out. Ok I get it. Whatever......
"Yeah sure" I say. That's when it hit me. He will never look at me as more than a friend. I'm stuck in the friends zone forever. But at lease he wants to hang out. I'm happy he still cares about me.
I got so excited this morning when he asked me out because somewhere in my heart I think I do want something more with Shawn. But he clearly doesn't want any of that. So I need to get over him. Just like Brittney said.
We got home after an hour of walking and talking... Shawn shared with me a lot of his experiences and things that happened to him during the tour. It sounds amazing.
I have never been to one of his concerts. I know that probably sounds weird. But I never really had the chance. I wish I could go to one of his shows. That would be amazing. To hear him singing in real life.
I mean, it's not like I never heard him singing before. But not his new songs. Not his own songs. The ones the he wrote. I wish I had that chance.
I went to my room and Shawn came in with me.
"Uh.. Shawn?" I ask. That was a hint for him to get out if I wasn't clear.
"Can you make the couch for me?" He says..
"Oh... yeah sure." I say I take some pillows and I take some sheets from the closet and I give him a blanket too.
I make the couch for him and I go back to my room to find Shawn sitting on my bed on the phone.
"All done" I say.
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Roman d'amour"Do you have a crush on me?" He asks "No.." I try to deny it. "I think you do..." he says and he gets closer. He is as close as we've never been before. I can smell his perfume. It smells so good. He touches my face and I can feel my heart beat ris...
