My brother's best friend

Chapter 31 - flight

After Shawn walked out of the room I felt empty. And sad. I just don't get it. Why can't we just be together without all this drama?!

At the morning I woke up at around 10. Lucas wasn't around as usual... and it's only me and Shawn.

"Good morning" Shawn says smiling "good morning" I say smiling back. Things are awkward.

"Hey so I need to go to this photo shoot in New York for a few days do you want to join me?" Shawn asks me. Wait what? To go with him to New York?! Holy shit. Of course!!!! "What?! Are you sure you want me to come..?" I ask. I don't want to pressure him but I'm so excited for this trip. "Yeah. It'll be fun. I asked Lucas to come too but he said he can't come he is busy... so it's just you and me" he says. Scrolling through his phone. "Oh ok, I'll need to check if I can go.. I'll talk to my boss" I say. "Cool" He says. He is not even looking at me.

"Hey good morning" Lucas says walking out of his room. Oh I thought he wasn't here. "Hi..." I say. "Bye gotta go" He says and he starts walking towards the door "oh wait, last night I came really late and I didn't get to ask you.. so I'll just do it now. I'm going to L.A. for a week tomorrow.. I thought it'll be fun if you'd come.. so do you want to join me...? Or to stay here..? I mean, whatever you want. I'm going to work and I'm not sure I'll time to hang" he says. Wow what is going on with all the flights....? "Uh... I'll think about it" I say "ok cool. Bye guys" he says walking out of the house.

Shawn put his phone on the couch looking at the window.. "what are you doing?" I ask. "Thank god he left" he says coming to me kissing me. Holy shit. Think about it... Shawn Mendes fucking kissing you. Oh my god. That's just... wow. He is so sweet and charming and I'm just.... wow. I don't even have words to describe how I feel. We start to make out and that's it guys. This is our big moment. I can feel it.

Or maybe not...... There is a knock on the door. Why? Why? Why? "Fuck" Shawn says stopping to kiss me, looking to the ceiling. Yes, Fuck indeed. "I'll open it" I say. Shawn manganese to give me another kiss and to gently slap my ass. holy shit Mendes.... what was that? I did not expect that from you........ it was kinda hot. If I have to admit.

I go to open the door and I see Brittney. "Hey" She says walking in. "Hi" I say closing the door after her.

"Hi Shawn" she says giving him a hug. "Hi Britt" he says fake smiling. "Hey B can I talk to you?" She asks looking at me. Uh.... what is that supposed to mean? "Yeah sure" I say. We both walk to my room and I'm a little confused by what's happening...

"Is everything ok?" I ask walking in the room first. "Ok.." she says walking after me and closing the door. "I kissed Brad" she says. What? "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I swear. He is going through something and we talked and got real close and we kissed. I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me" she begs. "Seriously?" My eyes are filled with tears. We didn't really date for that long but still... that really hurts. "Yes. It happened last night and I tried to call you right after but I guess you were asleep..." she says.

"Flashback:
In my room, I'm standing when Shawn locks the door looking at me. He pushes me on the bed laying on top of me kissing the hell out of me.

He takes his shirt off and he continues to kiss me. He slowly moves to my neck and it feels so good.

My phone buzzes... someone is calling me. I ignore it and I let Shawn continue kissing me. This is a dream coming true..
End of flashbacks"

Oh shit. So she kissed my ex at the same time I kissed her crush who is my crush as well, and we are sort of secretly dating.... oh shit. I feel horrible. I can't be mad at her. I did to her the same she did to me. Maybe even worse... nope, probably worse. She chose to tell me about the kiss... and I kissed Shawn a few times now and I don't tell her. Oh no now I feel the worst!