After my shift I got home and Shawn was eating a sandwich in the kitchen.
"Hey" I say as I walk in. I put my bag on the couch, I grab myself a bottle of water from the fridge and I sit next to Shawn.
"Hey how was your shift?" Shawn asks. It sure was something....
"Uh...." I drink my water. "Come on tell me?" He says as he takes a bite. "ok... So Brittney showed up." I say. Shawn's face turn red. "What did she want?" He asks.
"She told me everything you said to her about not exclusively dating someone... and now she wants to go and search for the girl you are not exclusively dating, aka me." I say
"Oh shit, so what are you going to do?" He asks. Wait what?
"What am I going to do? What do you mean?"
"Oh, I just.. I don't know. How are you going to handle that?" He asks. What is that supposed to mean? What, I'm the only one who is in this situation? "I don't know." I say. "I thought about stopping whatever is going on between us..." I say. Shawn chokes on his sandwich. "What?!" He says.
"You want to stop what's going on between you? What's going on between you?" Lucas says walking out of his room. "Nothing... I was talking about me and Brittney" I say. Wow. I don't know if it's a good things that I learned how to lie so fastly.. but I'm getting really good.
"Oh" Lucas says making himself a coffee. "Oh did you ask your boss about going to L.A. next week?" Lucas asks. "Uh.. I didn't say it like that... I asked for a few days off and He didn't approve I'm sorry." I say. "Oh no problem. You can come with me to work whenever you feel like it" He says and goes back to his room.
"So I guess that's a no to the 3 days to New York too, right?!" Shawn says..
"Actually, I talked to my boss and he said he was fine with it. But I'm not sure I want to go anymore." I say.
"What? Are you serious just this morning you said you want to come" he says. " I know, I changed my mind." - "Why? Was it something I did?" He asks.
"No, not really. It's mostly because of Brittney." I say. "Oh and also I'm going on another date with Adam tomorrow and I want to see where things are going" I add.
"Wait what?!?! You are going on a date with Adam?" Shawn looks really hurt. I'm sorry.. "No jealousy remember?" I say. "No. The rules changed when we decided to..." he looks that no one is around "secretly date each other" he whispers.
"Ok, Shawn look. I really want you ok? But I'm not kidding Brittney is going to kill me. And it looks like you don't even care" I say.
"Excuse me?" Shawn puts his sandwich down. "It looks like I don't even care? Are you fucking serious??!" Oh no it looks like I hit a nerve. I stand up because I'm actually a bit scared. I know if this conversation will go any longer I will cry. I know I want Shawn. I know it. But things are too complicated.
Shawn stands up as well and he pushes me on the table so I'm sitting on the table. He looks me in the eyes and he starts kissing me. "I do care, B. I do fucking care. And I don't know what to do about Brittney. It's not my fault for having feelings for you and you having feelings for me." He says.
"You have feelings for me?" I ask. Looking at his eyes biting my lip. "Wasn't it obvious?" He asks looking at my lips. He leans in again and he starts kissing me again. I kiss him back. I don't want to be with anyone else. I KNOW I want Shawn. But I just can't do this to Brittney. I stop kissing him. I don't want Lucas to walk out and see us.
Tears are falling down my cheeks as I'm thinking about not being with him. That thought made me miserable. "Why are you crying?" Shawn says looking at me wiping my tears. "We can't be together." I say.
"I know, that's why we are secretly dating" he says. Looking me in the eyes. I look away and I push him a bit. I get off the table, "we are hurting so many people. You are basically hurting all of your fans. And I'm hurting Brittney and Adam.. which is interested in my for some odd reason. And you know we can't do this to Lucas." I say
"So, What are saying?" Shawn drops a tear on his cheek.
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My brother's best friend
Romance"Do you have a crush on me?" He asks "No.." I try to deny it. "I think you do..." he says and he gets closer. He is as close as we've never been before. I can smell his perfume. It smells so good. He touches my face and I can feel my heart beat ris...
