playing with fire | taerose 🌹

37.

Lisa sat across from me in my bed, her eyes flaring irritation from what I just told her.

I knew in the back of my mind, I was going to regret telling this girl anything. She has the biggest mouth in the group and knowing her, everyone might know my business soon. I'm having major regret at this point.

"You sound mad at me..." I managed to say, my eyes scared to look into hers.

"Well, yeah, I kind of am." Lisa spoke honestly and my eyes widened with surprise from her words.

"Why?" I asked her.

"You know how Jungkook feels about you. Did you do this with him honestly? Do you have feelings with him?" Lisa asked me and I was shocked by at how forward she was.

"I don't think I have feelings for him..." I braced myself with my answer.

"So why would you have sex with him if you didn't have feelings for him?" She asked me with a snotty tone.

"Because it just happened. I don't know how it happened...and I don't know why it did. It's not like I wanted it to happen." My voice shook as I spoke, my heart beginning to pick up a fast beat. This conversation was making me nervous as it was going south fast.

"Rose, you both took your clothes off and he stuck it in you. You can't play it off like you don't know how or why. Clearly, you could have stopped it if you didn't want it to happen. We both know Jungkook is too much of a chicken to make the first move. So, just be honest with me. Are you pursuing him or are you using him to try and get over Taehyung?" Lisa asked me, cocking her head and she blinked twice, waiting for my answer.

I was taken aback at her bluntness towards me. I didn't expect it to go this way. I didn't expect to have to justify my actions or even figure out what my motives were. Because...this is my life. I didn't feel like I need to explain myself, especially to her.

"I might be hurt over Taehyung, but I don't want to think I did this to get even. I don't want to hurt Jungkook, ever. That's not my intentions." I barely said.

"Then stop hurting him." Lisa shot at me and I narrowed my brows at her slightly.

"I'm not hurting him." I answered with confidence.

"You would have never given him the time of day if it wasn't for the fact that you and Taehyung were done, and that's the honest truth. You're going to hurt him badly, Rose. I'm saying this because it's the truth and you need to hear it. Be upset at me if you want, but you're both my friends and I think the last thing you two need to be doing is fucking each other. The kid is already in love with you, do you think that's going to help? You don't even have feelings for him, that's not fair to him. He lost his virginity to you. He's always going to remember you." Lisa said, ending her sentence with a tongue click.

"I don't know why you're reacting like this, I didn't even have to tell you what happened, and quite frankly I wish I wouldn't have said anything." I said, sitting up in my bed.

"Someone needs to defend the kid, because clearly you aren't doing as such. You can have sex with anyone, and that's fine. I don't care about that. But it's clear as day that Jungkook is in love with you. He can't do that. You either need to settle that or leave him alone, because I already know he's going to be 10 times more attached to you than he is after what you two did. I'm doing this for him, and I'm doing this for you. I get it, you're heartbroken but do not do this to our bunny boy."

-x-

It's Friday. A couple days have past since my first hangout with Lisa, the first time in forever. Our conversation didn't go the way I thought it was going to go. I also didn't speak much to her since. It was an awkward tension that I didn't know how to break, even though I wanted to break it. I needed my friends, especially during a time like this.