28-November-09, Saturday. Walang pasok pero masaya ako. Eh,kase first time magkakabf eh (tawa)
Habang kinukwento ko kay Kua Bien na kame na ni Aj ay saktong dumaan si Leynam. Napatingin sya saken at napatawa na naman ako. (evil laugh)
29-November-09, Sunday. Ano ba yan? Namimis ko na si Aj, agad-agd. Sana magkita na ulit kame. Sana pasukan na.
30-November-09, Monday. Ang tagal naman mag martes! Gusto ko ng makita si Aj eh sabi kase nya miss na daw nya ako eh. Iiii, sobrang excited na tuloy ako makita sya. I love this feeling.
01-December-09, Tuesday. Sa wakas may pasok na. May shooting (date/usap) pala si Clarisse at si Arnold. Bute nalang sinamahan ako ni Aj maghintay, para nga kaming nagdo.double date nun eh sila sa Science Park, kame sa TLE Park naman. Iii, hawak.hawak pa nya ung kamay ko. Sobrang nakakakilig talaga.
2-December-09, Wednesday. Masaya naman kame ni Aj na laging magkasama. Pero syempre tameme kame bigla sa English nung nagreveal si Ana ng feelings nya. (Ang topic kase, MY SPECIAL S0ME0NE tapos dapat Explain.) Natigilan ako habang nagsasalita si Ana;
"i just heard that last Friday. My special someone got committed. I was shocked and hurt. I couldn't believe it. Alam ko namang nagmamahalan kaming dalawa pero hindi pa pwede. Because time dictates that we shouldn't be......."
Mahaba ang kasunod nun pero hindi ko na matandaan dahil nagulat ako sa mga nasabi nya. Ang hindi ko pa matanggap, English un tapos talagang Tinagalog pa nya ung part na makakasakit talaga sya. Nawala ako sa wisyo at napatingin ako kay Aj, nakakaawa ang tingin kong un at alam kong nag aalala na din si Aj saken. Samantalang ako naman, nag aalala din ako kay Aj baka kase tama si Ana at marealized nya un.
Aj: ok ka lang?
Ako: (ngumiti lang)
Aj: wag mong pinagpapapansin un, sira ulo talaga un,eh
Ako: ...........
Aj: bukas, tayo naman magsasalita ok? Babawi tayo.
Ako: ha?
Aj: basta, ako mauuna magsalita tapos, dapat kasunod kita ha?
Ako: sige...
3-December-09, Thursday. Pumasok ako at syempre ang main event ay naganap sa English.
Ma'am: any volunteer?
(at nag taas nga ng kamay si Aj)
Ma'am: yes, Aj.
(tumayo si Aj at nagsalita)
"the first time I saw her, somehow I knew that she could be someone special for me. I know its hard to understand and difficult to accept but truth is, I am captivated with her smile, her beauty, her complete beings. She is different compare to others, thats why my heart bits for her in just an instant look at her. Total package she was. Beauty and brain. What could I ask more? I know I've left her before over my past but I regret what I did. From the time she was beyond me, I realized how much I love her. Although, I tried to forget this feelings and focus to somebody else, I really couldn't stand it at all. My love for her gets deeper everyday and even she's out of my reach, I can't imagine life without her. I don't want to lose her anymore just because of what people says or think so, here I am telling my real feelings. I love you Nielyn Subico, you are my special someone."
Sigawan syempre, natunaw na naman ako sa kilig. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik nung mga time na un tapos...
Ma'am: who's next?
(nagtaas ako ng kamay at tinawag ako ni Ma'am)
Dismayado ang sigaw ng mga classmates ko,
Ma'am: why? She raised her hand so, I call her name.
(tapos syempre no choice na sila eh ngumiti ako at tumayo)
"once in my life I trust someone but I got fooled, I believe to people but I failed, I've been inlove but I got hurt. I know the feeling so, I have no intention to be the reason of other's grief. Yesterday, I heard your words but I aint say anything, I even didn't react at all. It hurts still, I respect you for that, not because I believe in you but because that's all your visions; that's what you see, what you think and what you feel. I admit, I felt a little frightened and I am so offended. How could you have the guts to say that "you know, you were both inlove with each other" when I am her girlfriend? Do you really think that we'll commit and fool each other just because time turns against you and him? The only thing I can assure you is that, in the times you were together, I didn't say such a thing that you've said. So, becareful to a single word you say, it may be nothing to you but it is everything to me, to us. However, everytime I heard the "oing and the aing" of our classmates, I smile and keep in silence. I tried to be happy for the both of you. And now, I felt sorry for you. You are hurt, I know. But I love him and he love me too. He just left because he thought I don't like him. And you were there for him in time of his confusions so, credits to you. Thank you! And to my special someone, you really know how to make it up with me. It didn't really matter how you left me, remember, whenever you are headed with the wrong direction, God allows U-turn. And whatever so happens, I will still love and accept you just the way who you are. I always wish for us to be together forever, I have faith in you, I keep believing myself that we are meant to be. You are my special someone because you always makes me feel special. I am fated to love you Mr. Aj Alejo."
At nagsigawan na naman ang mga classmates namen. Grabe! Sobrang ingay nun. Pate si Ma'am napapangiti. Pero, habang nagbabasa ako ay nakatingin si Ana saken. Napaluha sya at umiyak. Siguro tinamaan talaga sya o baka nasaktan o baka narealized nyang mali sya. Ang totoo, marami pa talaga akong gustong sabihin pero alam kong dapat 'gang dito lang ako. Wala akong intensyon makasakit pero may masasaktan talaga. Wala akong balak na ipamukha sa kanya ang lahat pero kung un lang ang dahilan para matauhan sya, wala akong magagawa kundi magsalita diba? Ang gusto ko lang naman, linisin ang pangalan ko at ayusin ang samen ni Aj, ung kame. Un lang.
Pagkatapos ng eksenang yan ay para akong nakahinga ng maluwag. Masaya kaming magkasama ni Aj, hawak-hawak pa nga nya ang kamay ko kaya mas lalo ko syang minamahal. Lalo na pag nilalapit nya ung kamay ko sa mukha nya. I love the feeling na parang napi.freeze ako. Di ko pa kase to naramdaman before,eh pano na nga ba sa College? Kame pa kaya? Hal-lah, ayoko pa tuloy maggraduate kase ayoko pa magkahiwalay kame. Nga pala, pagkatapos ng mga sinabe ko kanina ay hindi ko na makalimutan ung naging reaction ni Ana. Pero mas lalong di ko din makalimutan ung mga sinabi nya. Feeling na iniinsulto ung relation namen? Di ganon,men!
Hindi ko talaga alam na ako ung SPECIAL S0ME0NE ni Aj,eh takot kase ako mag assume pagkatapos mag reveal ni Ana kaya bumuhos ang tensyon saken nung nagsasalita si Aj at syempre, ako ung tunaw na tunaw sa topic na yan bilang saken lahat nakatingin habang nagsasalita sya pati nga nung nagsasalita si Ana eh parang ako talaga ung nalubog sa kahihiyan nun. Sabi nga ni Ma'am, pagkatapos kong magsalita eh "may mga bagay talaga na mahirap ipaliwanag at di kayang tanggapin ng agaran. Lalo na kung di nyo napag uusapan ng harapan kaya nga may ganito tayo para magkaintindihan na dito."
