5SOS Preferences

neck deep- over and over song pref

his p.o.v. for all of them yay

ASHTON: I always had a way with words but they just don't make sense to her

"Don't you see you're beautiful? It makes me so fucking mad that you can't see that." She was at it again, she got a lot of hate from my fans and it made all her self esteem disappear and she claims she can't handle it anymore. "No Ash, I can't believe that. Your fans are so rude to me and I want to be happy. So this time it's for real. I don't want to be this unhappy anymore. You always tell me to put myself first so that's what I'm doing." She sighed with a tear running freely down her soft face. "No, that's- I mean- please don't do this! I really need you. You shouldn't listen to what they people say, remember?" I was yelling now, but I didn't care. "No I'm done, Ash. You'll move on okay? I'm just trying to be happy and that's what you should want." Maybe my words didn't make sense to her. People always told me I was a genius with words, but I guess she found her way around them because now she's gone living her life happily and I'm a lonely mess with no more motivation.

CALUM: and I hoped that I was some sort of exception to your plans and your direction

She had left for college in America, where she belongs. She is definitely the most intelligent girl I had ever met and I always new her hard working brain would get her somewhere in life. She is beautiful and I love her, even if she's gone and never coming back to me. our memories that we share and our whole relationship, it was special, but now it's down the drain. I want nothing but the best for her but that doesn't mean that doing what's right doesn't hurt. I remember her exact words, she told me I could go with her or we could break up and I obviously couldn't leave. The band needed me and I couldn't give it up for her, no matter how much I wanted to. America is a long ways away and I always hoped that I was a exception to her plans and direction and she would drop her life to come on tour with me, but that's selfish and I let her go because I love her and nothing means more to me than her being happy and safe.

LUKE: I always pictured myself as being someone you'd miss

Apperantly after a year of not seeing someone you don't miss them anymore? I guess that's how it was for her, not for me though. After a ugly fight ended our 3 year relationship I've done everything I can to move on, and believe me I'm trying but seeing her happy with another guy makes me want to try harder. She was always my everything, I loved her more than anything and I'm trying to move on from that. She always told me that if she really missed someone after a long time she came back because if she misses them they must make her happy, and she likes people that make her happy. I guess I wasn't someone she missed? Maybe she new I wasn't good for her. Guys in bands can't ever be good news. She deserves more.

MICHAEL: eight weeks to take that drive and think this one over and over

Eight weeks, that's how long she's been gone. A drive to think a bit doesn't normally take right weeks, and I was scared that this was the end of us. She was definitely an over thinker so when she said she needed to think our argument over I was expecting it to take a while, but never in a million years would I think it would take her eight weeks.Maybe I should've treated her differently? Maybe I just wasn't home enough and she didn't get enough attention? She always told me that even though she hates to admit it, she always needs someone by her side and I'm gone for months at a time. The letter I received after eight weeks broke my heart the most though. In the letter it said that we just weren't working out anymore and "we" just couldn't work. She's the reason I'm alone in the world today and she's the reason I no longer believe in love.

sorry Ashtons is a bit longer and a lil different from the rest 😌 I do song prefs a lot idec