5SOS Preferences

Lullaby: song pref

so this is a little different. it's a song prefrence of Lullaby by Nickleback, hope you like it! I just need to say TRIGGER WARNING OKAY THIS IS RLY SAD

ashton:
i know the feeling, of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge

and there ain't no healing, from cutting yourself with a jagged edge

Pulling the sharp piece of broken glass across your thigh again from when you had hit the mirror, sending it to shards on the ground, you started to wonder why you didn't think if this earlier.

The hate had gotten too much, you ended up in your under clothes infront of the large mirror examining your body and picking out all of your flaws. You had always been insecure and what people were saying about you on twitter became too much. Hiding it from Ashton had always been te hardest part. He knew something was up, just couldn't quite put his finger on it.

You let out a gasp as you hear the front door open and close signaling Ashton was home. You struggled to wipe up the blood and pieces of glass from when you hit the mirror. You hissed as you cut your hand multiple times. You heard Ashton calling your name but continued to clean up. His voice got louder and soon he was generally knocking on the door.

"What." you sighed, your voice failing as it cracked signaling you were crying.

"Let me in." Ashton said loudly startling you.

Although you had told him not to, he didn't listen. Storming into the bathroom he looked devistated at the sigh he saw.

Your hair was a mess and mascara streaks were all down your face. the tee shirt you had throughn on was stained and baggy. You were a mess. Tears pooled in Ashton eyes and he took your body in his arms.

"Why." He whispers softly.

"They hate me ash. There's not one nice thing bing said about me, and I cant take it!" you sobbed.into his chest.

"Look (Y/N), I've been here before, and I know what it's like to hurt and feel hopeless. But there isn't any healing from hurting yourself. Please promise me you won't do this anymore."

All you could do was cry harder.

"Okay."

and you intended to keep that promise.

luke:

please let me take you

out of the darkness and I to the light

cause I have faith in you

You hadn't told Luke about you suffering from depression, and weren't really planning on it in fear that he wouldn't love you anymore.

You had developed depression genetically as a preteen and it carried on with you throughout your life. You had been dating Luke for two years and still hadnt told him about the large part of your life and your number one struggle.

Of course you held a lot of guilt for not telling him. He is always so honest and open with you but you can't seem to find the words to tell him.

You and Luke had invited over the boys for a movie day when the familiar darkness creeped up on you. You knew that it was going to be one of those days, so you chose to ignore it and keep your focus on the movie.