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song for me- yellowcard (michael/4)

you never understood you're everything to me

dear (y/n),
hi, I'm sorry it's taken me so long to contact you. I don't even know if you wanted me to honestly. but I felt like I need to so here you go. I know you wouldn't have answered me if I called you or texted you (you also don't like how everything has to do with technology these days) and I wouldn't be able to handle talking to you in person, not now at least. there's tear drops all over the paper so sorry if they smear the think. I'm so sorry for all the mistakes I made, which I know there's a lot of them and I can't say sorry enough for each one of them so I'll just give you one big fat apology right now. I'm so so sorry. I know I messed up and could have treated you better, but my ego and pride got in the way. I know how insecure you are and I also know I didn't do much to help you with that most of the time, but that's because I didn't now how to. I'm just too shocked to think someone like you can think so lowly of themselves. I miss your smile. I miss you. it's only been 3 months and I miss you. we once went 8 months without seeing eachother, do you remember that? we both went mad. I miss your touch. I don't think you understand, y/n, and now I'm mad and sad and so many other emotions I can't handle. I'm in tears right now, you know how much I hate crying. I'm craving a summer night, us sprawled out in your room with your huge windows open so we can catch the evening breeze without even being outside. I want to hold you, all night and tell you that you're everything I've ever wanted and needed. can we please just rewind? I wish I knew how to do this better. I miss you and I love you. do you know how much I love you? I don't think that's possible actually. I love you more than the moon loves the sun, darling. please get back to me, we can work this out if you give me another chance. I'm learning, babe, I'm learning how to love. I just need you, please, you never understood you're everything to me.

- Michael