Roller Coaster Bliss

[73] He's better

[73]

Jaime Faith's POV

I'm here on our meeting place,silently seating and waiting for Nicholo. Nauna ako sa kaniya, I don't know why. Maybe magkaiba kami ng route at ako ay dumaan sa short cut?

I can see the whole city here. The lights that giving color on the dark night. The buildings, the cars, the houses,etc.

I look up, I can see thousand of starts that is shining together with the crescent moon.

I can hear the natural noises at night.

Nakaupo ako sa hood ng kotse ko at nakatanaw sa paligid. Nasa tuktok ako ng burol. Hindi naman totally burol. It's like Ito yung pinakamataas na place dito where you can see the whole city.

It's very refreshing and relaxing here. It's so quiet.

I don't know what will I say later.

Even matagal kong pinaghandaan ang pag-explain ko sa kaniya para akong nagkaroon ng selective amnesia. Parang nalimutan ko lahat ng sasabihin ko.

Napalingon ako sa Bandang likuran ng sasakyan ko nang may narinig akong paparating na kotse. I assumed that it's Nicholo.

And I'm right it's Nicholo. Kaagad niyang ipi-nark ang kotse niya sa likod ng kotse ko at dahan-dahang naglakad patungo sa aking pwesto. Kaagad naman akong nag-iwas ng tingin.

Can I seat beside you? He asked. Andiyan na pala siya malapit sakin.

Tumango ako.

Noon hindi na siya nagpapa-alam kung uupo siya sa tabi ko. Kahit nga pagyakap at paghalik niya sakin walang paalam ngunit ngayon simpleng pag-upo lang malapit sa tabi ko ay tinatanong niya kung pwede. Parang hindi kami magkakilala at parang ibang Tao siya. Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako.

Ilang minutong walang nagsalita sa pagitan namin,ngunit siya ang bumasag sa katahimikan sa pagitan naming dalawa.

How are you? It's been years. Halos pabulong na niyang sambit. Iba ang naisip kong sasabihin niya. He is talking casually on me.

I'm fine, how about you? I answered without looking at him.

Still longing on your love. He said. Halos kapusin ako sa paghinga dahil sa biglaan nitong pagsagot ng ganoon. Nakakabigla. Kaagad rin namang nang gilid ang kaniyang luha dahil dito.

Sorry coz' I left you. I said. Sorry coz' I don't let you know what's the big deal why I left. Sorry coz' I  left you hanging. Sorry because I don't think on what will you feel. Sorry because I think my self first. Sorry because I'm selfish and self-centered. Sorry. I'm very sorry. Napahagulhol ako ng iyak. Napasubsob ako sa aking tuhod at doon umiyak ng umiyak.

Bigla na lang may matipunong mga braso ang yumakap sa akin.

Don't be sorry. It's not your fault. It's my fault that I don't ask you if your still okay. Sorry for letting you go. Sorry. Stop crying. You know how much I hate it when your crying. He kissed my head but I'm still sobbing.

No-no. It's my fault. Nicholo it's my fault. I'm crying and sobbing hardly this time.

Don't put the blame on you Jaime Faith. He said seriously. Medyo tumigil ang aking pag-iyak. Nagsalita na siya ng seryoso and I hate that.