Forbidden Truth

Chapter 85

Chapter 85
Parrish pulled up to his apparent and turned off the motor but he didn't move. We sat there for a few seconds in complete silence. I could feel something in that silence. It was growing, bigger and bigger; and I worried that there wouldn't be room for all of us.
"If you don't want me here I can leave." I said, needing desperately to break the silence. "No." He said quickly and shook his head. "No, I was... just trying to..." He trailed off. "Take everything in?" I asked. He nodded. "Yeah, this... we... everything. It's just hard to take in all at once." I finally spit out as I fumbled over my words. He nodded. "Four hours ago I was..." He trailed off and looked away. "Normal?" I asked. He looked back at me and nodded. "It's okay. It's not a bad work. I get it. Trust me, I understand where you're coming from." I reassured him. Yes, I had had that thought several times in my life. I still have that thought sometimes. Maybe I always will.
"How did you find out about all this?" He asked. It was obviously a weird question for him. "Derek's family." I said plainly. He made a weird noise. "You and Derek've know each other for a long time." He said with a hint of jealously in his voice. I nodded. "Yeah." I nodded. "Yeah we have."
Parrish opened his mouth but I knew the next question would be about me and Derek. "Parrish." I interrupted him. "You probably don't want to hear about me and Derek. It's not something you want details about, trust me." I told him. To be completely honest, I don't want to talk about Derek with Parrish. It just feels wrong.
"I don't know how to say this, Eva. But you need to know this. I felt drawn here. To Beacon Hills. And I kind of understand why now, sort of. But I don't understand why I felt drawn to you." Parrish said. I turn to his suprised and shocked and a bit confused. "I don't get it. I didn't realize it until that bomb went off in the Sheriff station. When I saw you bleeding on the floor, my first through was 'please not her'. I didn't even know you. As far as I knew you were a murderer but in that second I didn't care. When the... ninja demon things attacks us in the station and I was convinced I was going to die, all I could think was 'please let her be safe'. I don't know why, but I was dying and all I could think about was you. I couldn't get you out of my head and I tried. I know you're in a relationship, and apparently a very long one, but I can't stop." I was completely overwhelmed but at the same time I was scared because I understood him. And I realized something. Something I had known in the back of my head but never dared to let it surface.
"Don't..... Don't say that." I told him weakly. He shook his head. "Why?" Parrish asked confused. "Because I like you. I really, really like you." I hadn't realized it until then but I knew it with all my heart. I liked Parrish. More than I thought I could like anyone. And that scared me. I had only loved one man, Derek. I never dreamed that there might be someone else out there for me.
"What about Derek?" Parrish asked after a little while. I shook my head. "Right now, things are complicated. We haven't been on the best terms since he came back from Mexico." I told him. Derek had tried but not as hard as I thought he would. Maybe it was just me. I had wanted things to go back to normal but I knew that everything has changed.
"You know what I don't get? You know I'm a monster. You know I've killed for power but you didn't say anything when I offered to come with you." I pointed out. Most people, especially police officers, would have done something, anything. He shrugged. "People make mistakes but I don't believe you're a monster." He said and got out of the car.