Be My First - A Jack Gilinsky Fanfiction

Chapter 56 - Breakdown

     "Do you need me to come beat his fucking ass?" He sounded furious.

     I started crying. "Cam I just want to go home. I just want Ava back. I just want to watch movies with her all day and go out for ice cream. I want my best friend back." I sobbed.

     "Paige. If I could do something to bring her back, I would. I'm so sorry. I- I would do anything for you to be happy. Please don't cry. Please." He said.

   I wiped my eyes. "I still haven't told Nash." I sniffled.

     "Do you need me to do it? Or, I just, um, I can do anything for you if you need it. Don't be afraid to ask."

    "It would be wrong if I wasn't the one to tell him. It's just going to be hard. I don't want to do it.. But I'm going to have to.. Today."

    "I'm so sorry. I wish I could just give you a big hug right now. I miss you."

    "Miss you too Cam."

    "Please tell me if you need something. Can I come visit you some time?"

    "Thank you. And I'm on tour, I mean, the only time I'll be at home is... For uh, Ava's funeral."

    It felt so weird saying Ava's funeral. No. I wanted to be saying Ava's birthday.

    "Oh yeah.. Well.. Maybe I can work something out?"

    "Yeah, we can talk about that."

    "Okay. Please don't cry. I'll see you later."

    "Thank you, I'll call you later."

    "Alright, bye."

    "Bye."

    I hung up the phone and went into the bathroom. I wiped my face off even though I was just going to cry again.

    I picked up my phone and dialed Nash.

    "Paige! What's up?" He answered. I immediately started crying.

    "Hey are you okay?" He asked.

    "No. I'm not. I need to tell you something."

    "Okay.. What's going on?"

    "Ava passed away, yesterday."

     No answer.

    "You're kidding right?" He started breathing hard.

     "... I wish I was."