Hermitcraft one-shots

Vent regarding old things

I recently thought back on what I was like before all of this, and I started writing about it. And it became a vent, but don't worry! I'm mostly over the stuff I talk about in here! So no need to worry to much

I don't remember much of childhood, but I know enough to talk about it.

I was a joyful and energetic child, I loved the outdoors and I was outgoing! I would go up to the servers at the restaurants or cafes we would go to personally to ask for something.

I don't know what happened to me, but I changed. Minimally at the time, but I changed.

I think it all started when I was around 8, it was locked inside one of the classrooms while all the others went to lunch. I think that it had a bigger impact on me than I first thought. I was freed, but I did miss lunch.

The second change happened during one of my Ex-boyfriends birthday parties. He liked collecting Pokemon cards, so I got him a few packs. In one of the packs he got a rare card, but the card disappeared. He blamed one of my other friends, and they got into a fight. They didn't talk after that, and they couldn't be close to each other after that.

And I was stuck in the middle, on one side I cared about my Boyfriend, but on the other hand I also cared about my friend.

It was late into the year, and I was moving schools soon so I wouldn't really be stuck in the middle of their little petty fights.

Speaking of my ex-boyfriend, I think he was also one of the reasons I started going into my shell.

He was a bit oppressive, you could say. He kept saying that there was no way I could have been Bi if I hadn't had a crush on a girl, after he said that our relationship was a tiny bit more shaky than normal but it was nothing major. It was after a different incident our relationship really shook, you see many people in my past school kept asking if me and another friend of where dating (It wasn't funny, and I have said so to everyone in my class multiple times) and my boyfriend made that joke on multiple occasions too. So one day I just snapped and I said "If you want me and Tom (Fake name) together so bad why don't you break up with me?". He asked if I was serious and I said "Maybe I am!". He ran after that, I didn't hear anything about him until my teacher came up to me asking what I did. A day later we got back together, I was still a bit shaken by it but he acted as if it nothing happened!

And when I broke up with him for good he threatened to commit suicide! Say how he couldn't live without me! I said that we could still be friends, but he just ignored that and kept threatening! Eventually he just told me to delete his contact since he didn't want to talk to me anymore.

And we aren't done yet! Oh no! Six months later I get a DM from him on Wattpad talking about how he wants me back and how he's been watching me! I told him he was making me uncomfortable and that I was going to block him. And then he had the audacity to use the second account he made (An account that he used to troll me pretending to be one of my other friends) and asking me to not report him to the police. And it wasn't the fact that he used the account I'm mad about, it's the fact that he pretended to be the friend even though I knew it was him!

Late last year he sent me a DM on a new account he made with all his different media things, we started fixing our broken friendship. But I can never truly forgive him, we haven't spoken in over a month now so I don't really care about what happens to him now.

Also, did I mention that he "bragged" to me about getting a Girlfriend 3 months after we broke up? Yeah he did that.

Now I think I should mention why exactly we broke up:

1, I had fallen out of love with him, simple as that.

2, I wanted to work on myself, since I was in quite a bad place at the time (Experiencing 2 deaths in the span of 1 month does that to someone).

And you know what he says? (In regards to getting a new girlfriend) "And she isn't self deprecating" Like, I'm sorry? Can't I grieve? I was kinda close with those 2 and there both dead. So I apologize for wanting to get myself together after that!

But things are looking up now, schools great. Friends, while they can give me stress at times are ok. I have an amazing Girlfriend, and I'm in a community of amazing people!

I'm healing from all that's happened, and I'm getting better! 

And that's all I really have to say