Way Too Deep

Chapter 27💢

"Forgive me if I stumble and fall for I not know to love to well I am clumsy and my words do not form as I wish so let me kiss you instead and let my lips paint for you all the pictures that my clumsy heart cannot"
-Atticus

Jah:

Today is Thursday and I leave in exactly 2 days. I couldn't be happier. I feel like this move will benefit me in so many ways. The way that I've always been good at selling things, i knew that i couldn't fail.

Anything anybody needed me to do, I would get the job done. I've teamed up with Nike and together we made a clothing line called 'Reign'. This wasn't my go to job but it was something I have been thinking about for a minute.

I was actually shocked when they had reached out to me. Never thought that they'd consider my designs. I was humble.

Looking around my house. I couldn't help but notice how empty it was. It was weird to see it bare like this.

Akashaa was on my mind but I know she wasn't really feeling me as of late. I've Ben fucking up , letting my emotions get the best of me. Letting people get in my ear.

There's this girl named Candy and she knows any and everything that goes on in this city. You need any information you go to her. She was deep in the streets , minding everybody damn business.

When she came to me about Akashaa being around some nigga that I don't mess with, I lost it. I don't play about my feelings so for me to hear that she's been kicking it with him is crazy. I felt like she was probably entertaining that nigga because I was moving.

Akashaa barely goes on the other side of town unless she's going to go see Pebbles and that's rare because Pebbles always comes to her.

It took me a minute to finally understand and grasp this. Why I didn't think about it before jumping to conclusions? I have no fucking clue.

I overreacted and had people watching her moves which was dumb on my part. Doing this caused her to look at me differently and it made her seem like I didn't trust her.

It wasn't that I didn't believe her. Usually when candy telling you about some shit, it's true. There's no denying it.

It took me a minute to realize that she was basically making all this shit up. We have history. Like we go way back. She used to be my go to person but shit changed.

Akashaa and I haven't been together for that long, but this is someone I could see myself being with forever. She makes every woman that I've had dealings with seem young minded and she's the youngest that I've been with. Never would I have thought.

I love Akashaa on a level that I haven't loved a woman on before and that shit scares me. There's nothing I wouldn't do for that girl. Nothing.

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I pulled up to Trey's house cause he wanted to have a going away party for me.  Shit wasn't needed but I did want some cookout food.

Knocking on the door, I waited for someone to answer it. I could hear the music and the laughter coming from inside. I hope this lil party go by quick 'cause I just wanna be laid up right about now.

She's probably pissed at me still and I understand. I just want her to know where I was coming from. I want her to understand how much she means to me. Even though I might have a crazy way of showing it.  An apology was due, for not coming to her first and just simply asking about it.

Some girl opened the door and looked me up and down.

"You gon' let me in or what?" I asked her.

She rolled her eyes and stepped to the side.