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BORED Games part 4

Josie's POV:

"Kiss me." "As you wish." I feel her cup my face smiling, as she pushes me against the side of the backboard of the bed, moving my hair. She kisses me, her lips, soft and light. Not like Landon's. I loved it and let her press on with the kiss, kissing back. Why had this mysterious girl, who I don't know, nor remembered, captured my attention? I feel guilty, ashamed, that I'm going to hurt her. I was realizing recently that I didn't feel the same, or at least on the same level as Landon did. He was filling a hole, so to speak, and it was no longer adequate. This- Hope, she was adequate. She was beyond it. But I know I'll do something to hurt her, somehow, even if I don't want to. A part of me still doesn't trust her fully, but I suppose we all have our secrets. Oh god she's pulled away. "Josie... you're thinking a lot... and you said some of it out loud." "Mhhhhhhmy?" I whine, no words coming out, really. "You ok Jo? This was a bad idea I'm sorry. I should've said no." She moves away. I don't want her to move away. I wanted her to hold me. Just for a bit. Just hold me close. "Hope~ I-" "I'm sorry. You have a boyfriend. I should've stopped." "I don't want you to stop. I want you to hold me. Please?" I sniffle. I am upset at myself. I'll hurt her. Fuck why am I such an idiot. I let a tear streak down my face and wipe it discreetly. She scoots towards me, pulling me into her lap. Oh god help me. I felt weak. Her voice brings me back to focus, "Do you want to stay here for a bit? Or we could go play some board games." "Stay. Board games later." I reply quickly, trying to nuzzle into her unnoticed. I feel her head in the crook of my neck and I smile widely.

Hope's POV:

"I don't want you to stop. I want you to hold me. Please?" Those words set me on fire. Not actually. But it felt like they did. I look at her, slowly moving towards her and pulling her in my lap. "Do you want to stay here for a bit? Or we could go play some board games." "Stay. Board games later." I know we probably aren't going to actually play board games, but honestly, I don't mind. I clutch the talisman, a thing precious to me now, and hum. I wrap my arms around her, putting my head in the crook of her neck. "Hope? Why can't I remember you?" "It's a long story Jo..." "Will you tell me one day?" "Yeah." She shifts, laying down, so I follow suit, and I spoon her, my eyes getting heavy. I hum a love you, discreetly, and drift off.