i have endured. [the story of nobody at all]

are you in here with me?

i honestly cannot tell.

i really just don't know. i am sitting here i guess, within the pit of my own doing: amidst the pain of all that which i have been forced to feel for what seems to be forever now.

my point being, i can see you here sometimes. amongst the darkness that surrounds me and everything else. that is all i see, unless you are near.

truly you do grant me a light that i have been denied for so long. i did not remember what it felt like, but now that i do i cannot get enough.

that hurts me, as i still do not have it. it seems as though i am still being denied exactly that, even if under different circumstances.

it does not seem to matter in the end. i just do not understand, nor do i know, nor will i ever truly know.

you know by now, if anyone is even here anymore, if anyone ever was.

you know, at the very least, that i myself know knowing. am nothing. will always be. exactly that.

nothing at all.

i am content with that, as long as i am not convinced otherwise. she took away my everything, leaving me with pieces that i cannot find.

here we are, nowhere at all. forever and ever, until we are no more.