Ten Thousand Hours

Chapter 32

Nasa byahe na kami ngayon. I got scared and I feel that something's wrong na kailangan ko ng umuwi agad. I keep calling my mom but she's not answering the phone. It keeps frustrating me and at the same time, mas nadadagdagan yung takot ko.

I look at Dave who's driving right now. He is so focused kasi mabilis ang pag papa takbo niya ngayon. He also got worried kaya sinabi ko na kung pwede pakibilisan. Hindi ko alam. Pero sobrang kaba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Hindi ako mapakali.

After several hours, we finally made it to our subdivision. Natatanaw ko na yung bahay namin. Pero something got my attention.

Why's so many people and body guards surrounding our house?

Dave park the car at nag madali akong bumaba. Sobrang daming kotse din. Ano ba 'to? Ano bang nangyayari?

Nahirapan pa akong makadaan dahil siksikan. Dave is pushing everyone para makadaan ako. He is holding my waist habang patuloy ang pag taboy niya sa mga tao. When we finally reached our gate, papasok na sana ako when a guard stops me.

"I'm sorry? Why did you do that?" Naiinis kong sabi. How dare he stop me? Bahay ko 'to for freaking sake! "I'm sorry. But I'm just following orders." He said. Pinapainit niya ang dugo ko.

"Look, bahay ko 'to okay? Sino kaba? Bakit ba kayo nandito? Nandiyan sa loob yung mom ko, okay?" Ani ko habang pilit na inaalis yung kamay niya. "Mama!" Sigaw ko. Inalis ni Dave yung kamay na pumipigil sakin. Hinawakan ko siya ng mahigpit. Pinipigilan na makipag away. Hindi niya kakayanin, ang daming nila.

A woman opened the door and stand infront of us. And what shocks me the most is when she bowed down at me. Nagulat ako. Ano na? Ano ba?

"She's our Miss. Let her in." She firmly said. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nangyayari ngayon dahil gulong-gulo na ako. Ano ba to? Hostage? "I'm sorry, Miss." The guy said and bowed down at me. Others followed him. Dave assisted me habang papasok ng bahay. I saw my mom and my little brother na namumugto yung mga mata. I immediately check them.

"Ma, ano bang nangyayari? Sino ba 'tong mga 'to?" Kinakabahan kong tanong. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at pumunta kami sa kusina. I look at Dave. He just nodded at me. He's holding Jamie's hand, my brother.

Ilang hakbang palang ang nagagawa ko when I saw a man. He is calmly sitting and looking around. He saw us and he stands up. Paupo na kami when I speak, "Ma," she just nodded at me. Umupo kaming dalawa.

"Ma, what's happening?" I nerviously asked. She hold my hands tightly. "He's your father." She said. I keep waving my head. "No, no. He's not. I can still remember da-," hindi na natapos yung pag sasalita ko. "Your real Father. He is your real Father, Hanna." She said. Bumugtong hininga ako. Naguguluhan ako. A-ano? Siya yung totoong tatay ko? H-how?

"P-paano?" I asked. My mom started crying. "I'm sorry, anak. I'm sorry." She said. I hit the table. I keep shouting "Bakit?". Naiinis ako. All these years, I suffered because of him. And now, my mom is telling me that he's not my real father? How could he do that to me?

"Huwag kang magalit anak. Please." Paulit ulit na sabi sakin ng mama ko. Paano? Sabihin niyo naman kung paano?

"I'm not angry, mom! I'm in pain!" I shouted. "I'm always in pain and no one knows that." Ani ko.

They've just always knew that I'm okay. Even if I'm not, they still know that I'm okay. "I wake up everyday, I'm in pain. I'm doing everything, I'm in pain. And even if I smile? I'm still in pain! And he is the one who brought me here in this kind of situation! He made me doubt at myself!" I said to them including the man. Napapagod na ako, napapagod rin naman ako.

"I'm sorry, anak. Pasensya kana." She keeps saying sorry while crying. I hate to see her cry. It ripped my heart. But how about me? I don't want to see myself crying either.

"I got scared mom." I said while crying. She and the man look at me. The man is also crying but he keep on hiding it. "Natakot akong maging katulad mo. Lagi mo siyang binibigyan ng pag mamahal noon. Natakot akong maging katulad mo na even if you've given all your love, he didn't gave you a little of his." Ani ko at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. Akala ko tapos na eh. Meron pa pala.

"Natakot akong mag bigay ng pag mamahal. B-baka kasi wala ring bumalik." Ani ko habang pinipigilan ang sarili na umiyak. Natakot ako eh. Para kasing ayokong maramdaman yung ganun kaya minsan, pinipigilan kong mag bigay ng pag mamahal. Natakot ako, sobra akong natakot.

"Forgive me, my angel." The man beside us said. Napatingin kami sa kanya. "Forgive me because I wasn't able to fight for both you before." Aniya at tumango. I'm still clueless right now. Gulong-gulo ang isipan ko.

"Your mom and I, we were so inlove before. I even promised her to give the best wedding she could have, but I failed. I also got scared at my mom. You're grandmother." He said. Natawa naman ako sa sinabi niya. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang dapat maramdaman ko.

"What the h-," I wasn't able to finish when he speak again. "She threatend me." Napatingin kaming dalawa sa kanya. "She threatened me that if I don't cut my connections with your mom, she'll kill both of you." Ani niya. W-what? "And I can't afford it." Dagdag niya. Jusko naman lord.

"The moment I saw you? I can say that God gave me my angel. I couldn't even think properly that time. I-I just want you in my arms. I want to hug you. I want to witness everything as you grow. B-but how can I do it when you're with me?" He said and cry. Huminga ako ng malalim. Wala na bang mas isasakit 'to?

"I-I want you to live. I want you to be happy. I want you to experience the world. But to be able to do that, I-I had to let you go. You're safe being not in my arms. You're safe if you're not with me." Aniya. He slowly moving his hands and grab my hands.

Tears started falling again. The moment he touch me? It feel familiar. My heart can't stop beating so fast.

He stand and starts walking to my direction. Nakatayo siya sa harap ko. "Please forgive me? Please my angel." He said. I stand and hug him. I hugged him tightly. Tears just keep falling from my eyes. As I hug him, I feel so loved. A Father's love that I didn't felt before.

"I am so happy right now. That I could hug you without any worries. I kept praying for this moment. I suffered every nights by just thinking about you. But after all of that, I can say that I did the right thing." He said between our hugs. I am loved.

Kumalas ako sa yakap namin. I looked at him. "I'm happy." I said. He just smiled at me. "But I need to breathe, D-Dad." Nauutal kong ani. I smiled at him. I look at my mom, she just nodded at me.

Nag simula na akong mag lakad palayo. I stop when Jaime hold my hand. "Ate, saan ka pupunta? Huwag mo kaming iwan. Wag kang umalis ate." He said while crying. Pumantay ako sa kanya. I wiped his tears. "Hindi aalis si ate at hindi rin kita iiwan. Pero kasi, kailangan ko lang talaga muna huminga. Pwede ba yun?" Tanong ko. He nodded at me.

Habang palabas ako ay hawak ko ang kamay ni Dave. I'm glad that he's here. Maraming sumusunod na body guards samin until we reached Dave's car.

"Sa malayo, Dave. Pinaka malayo." Ani ko pag kasakay ko ng kotse.

He holds my hands and kissed me in my forhead.