Okay, listen up and listen good. I am FED UP with life and heres why....
- I'm constantly feeling like I'm a disapointment bc my mom will never let me forget it :/
- My dads an asshole
- I'm kinda heartbroken and confused and embarrassed all at the same time because me and my ex dated for a year, and then he started getting distant and becoming hella close with my at the time bsf and I felt like I was losing him, onlt to find out the next day he was on a hp call until 5am with her and then soon after he broke up with me. BUT the thing is I'm a bit betrayed and I was mad at him, until I found out that she rejected him after they were "talking" for 2 weeks and he asked her out. THATS what I'm mad about. Not because he broke up with me, but bc I love him still and she played with his feelings and dropped him the second he dropped me:/
- I have no friends LTERALLY I'll be spending my summer vacay in my bed sleeping bc nobody likes me and I'm a screw up. And bc I have no friends I'm forcing myself to hang with the toxic ones that I "got rid of" bc thats better than being alone right?
- I am mentaly unstable. Like I dont know whats wrong with me and I'm like super sad all the time. and the ONLY thing keeping me alive rn, is the NJ fandom ( being apart of it because I feel I'm apart of something for once) and seeing wether my theories on the Vampir Diaries are true of not. (I HAVE NOT FINISHED THAT SHOW YET SO DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING PAST SEASON 4 )
- My humor?!?!?!?! IS FROM CHILDHOOD TRUAMA
- i just feel so alone.
- and lastly....the one big cherry on top?
KAIRI AND TAYLOR AINT FRIENDS NO MORE AND I FEEL LIKE MY HEARTS BREAKING EVERY SECOND AND I JUST FEEL HORRBILE ABOUT EVERYTHING GOING ON IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW I FEEL SO LOST AND OUT OF PLACE AND IM YOUNG I SHOULD BE ENJOYING MY YOUTH BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON NO ONE WANTS TO LAY OFF MY BACK AND LET ME BREATHE FOR ONE GOD DAMN SECOND
oh wow I really just rage typed all that shit lmao and thats not even a quarter of the shit in my life. Oh and my only escape is writing which I kinda suck at doing but I've just been writing drafts in my other stories because I'm just a bleh person right now and it's some early hour in the morning like maybe 3am and I am just thinking about my extremlet sad life....
Hows your day, afternoon, morning, or night been?
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The soccer boy❤️⚽️
Hayran KurguYour brother Kairi and you have always been in love with soccer. You quit 3 years ago due to an injury but still support your brother through managing his team. Passaic Valley high. Your invited to go on a 4 week tournament with the team. Only, ther...
